That Moment of Chump Rebellion

fts

Every liberation campaign begins with an act of chump rebellion. Today’s Friday challenge is to tell Chump Nation about that first moment you un-chumped.

Maybe you’re one of the quick learners and you filed immediately. Most of us, however, did not detonate the nuclear consequence right away. Instead, there were uprisings and skirmishes. Periods of lucidity where you cracked your head through the spackle and said “Fuck. This. Shit.”

What was your “I will not be your chump” awakening? When did you get uppity? How did your chump rebellion feel?

Mine was pretty dramatic and terrifying. I’d love to tell you it was all cloud partings and rainbows, but it was actually spent crying in a courthouse. Not for a divorce (see “slow learner”) but for a protection of abuse order after he threatened me. (Otherwise known as “Your Situation Goes Beyond Infidelity — Esther Perel).

It was the first time I put the heavy boot of consequences on his neck. He got thrown out of the house. That wasn’t the end, but it was the beginning of the end. I acted like a person who knew her worth.

What’s that song lyric? Free your mind and the rest will follow…

So tell me, Chump Nation, when did you first un-chump?

Subscribe
Notify of

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

850 Comments
Oldest
Newest Most Voted
Inline Feedbacks
View all comments
Starr
Starr
7 years ago

Ha! When I called HR and reported them for fucking on company time. It was a month long investigation and they interviewed all of their coworkers!

HappyMomof2
HappyMomof2
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

Damn! I need to add this to my list of “things I wished I’d done”

Roaring
Roaring
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

Oh TurningDove, this is awful.

On the other hand, you are a very talented writer. How could your ex cheat on someone with your ability?

I would consider it a public service if you would post this on Vaginal Lip Spreader’s Facebook page. Even if she never sees this, it’s out there. It’s here. And I, for one, will be laughing at it and her for a long time.

PS I’m your STD-sister. Turns out his sweaty geezer ball sac was covered in genital warts – not just a rash from too tight tighty whities [pre-D-day it never crossed my mind that he would cheat. I lived with that level of cognitive dissonance for years.]

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

Cooler than a polar bear’s toenails? You, TurningDove!

That was fucking disgusting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NywdVBwzurU

Shechump
Shechump
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

Oh God, Frozen-in-the-Ice Mortification, Turning Dove.

I just lost my supper.

How can you erase that visual – ever?

Shechump
Shechump
7 years ago
Reply to  Shechump

And, wtf about giving you a lasting ‘gift’.
This should be absolutely criminal.

ihateMark
ihateMark
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

My hopefully soon to be ex had 2 separate sexual harassment charges filed on him at his previous job and of course they were just trying to get back at him. He changed jobs a year and a half ago and of course had an affair with a married co worker. He is the CFO/COO of a non profit in South Carolina and when I contacted his co workers he filed a restraining order against me and had the nerve to tell me if I filed for divorce stating adultery that I would be hurting the organization and be in violation of my restraining order. What a piece of s_ _ _. We were married for 37 years and I’m not sure how I will ever get the stink of him out of my life.

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  ihateMark

” he had the nerve to tell me if I filed for divorce stating adultery that I would be hurting the organization and be in violation of my restraining order …”

That’s awful. I’m so sorry. I’d have to see the restraining order, and this is NOT legal advice, which you should get from your lawyer, but I cannot see that POS’s threat being remotely plausible.

I hope your lawyer is advising you to file for divorce on the grounds of adultery. It’s complicated to explain why it should be more than possible.

Is your lawyer a pitbull? You’re going to need it. That said, just hanging in there is an “act of rebellion.” Good for you!

Sunrise
Sunrise
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

Good one Starr! I can’t claim credit for reporting Asshat and his Howorker. Probably one of his other subordinates did since their relationship was well known.

But I will admit to a good laugh when he told me they both got fired, one right after the other the day after our divorce was final.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Sunrise

Well, that is certainly sweet karma, Sunrise!

Bonnie
Bonnie
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Standing ovation to the Karma Express Co.

SuzyQ
SuzyQ
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

I wish I knew at the time that my STBX was fucking his secretary. They were both married with top secret security clearances. My STBX was working on top secret US weapons programs. They were traveling together and fucking at every stop. A lot of shit would have gone done had I turned them in. She is still working for the government. I wonder if there is anything I can do to get her now. Ideas?

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  SuzyQ

The Inspector General of her agency is where to file a conplaint.

Janus
Janus
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

You can file an anonymous hotline complaint with the Inspector General

unicornomore
unicornomore
7 years ago
Reply to  SuzyQ

It still sounds like you would be putting your income at risk since he was the one in control of that sitch. My latehusband was in charge of government and Susan was in sales for the company trying to sell the govt their wares. They got caught in the affair by her employer and was fired…I bet they really didnt want to but would have been in legal shit if they were caught “providing sex” to govt customers. Odd thing is my thenhusband didnt get in trouble.

laurabb2001
laurabb2001
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

I wish I could report them to HR but the OW was Vice President of HR ……so yeah.

KB22
KB22
7 years ago
Reply to  laurabb2001

Should have reported her to the owner and or trustees. I know that if that happened in my company it would have been investigated and terminations would have resulted. Most companies do not want the potential scandal.

Chump change
Chump change
7 years ago
Reply to  KB22

My ex had an affair with a company client and his company didn’t give two shits about it. They had an HR talk with him but that’s about it. He got to keep his job and his hoe who he lives with now. So yeah…

Springy
Springy
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

I wish I could do this, but I rely on his income… 🙁

StrawberryJellyfish
StrawberryJellyfish
7 years ago
Reply to  Springy

I thought the same thing. They were coworkers and absolutely had their physical relationship start on business trips using company resources. I resisted because the last thing I needed was for ex-douchecanoe to lose his job. Funny enough 6 months after the divorce was final my ex was fired for a bad attitude at work. I don’t know what had happened since when we were together he was getting raises and promotions at work each year and was seen as a rising star in the company. I think people figured out about them and didn’t make life each for him. I had a few acquaintances at my ex’s company so I casually mentioned the affair and I’m pretty sure that fueled the rumor mill and people were not too kind to him. I have no idea how it all went down, but it certainly was nice to know. Thankfully by that time he was already locked into child support but he took him about 6 months to fins a new job.

Rebecca
Rebecca
7 years ago
Reply to  Starr

I wish I could have done this…it would have been so much fun!!!
Your post brought me a mental fantasy filled with satisfaction and glee.
Her salary supports them so he can support me, so it wasn’t an option for me.
Congratulations on being able to shine the light on their actions!

Paintwidow
Paintwidow
7 years ago
Reply to  Rebecca

Rebecca, same^^. My ex is a firefighter and had sex at the station, at the trauma helicopter hangar, in the training auditorium ( and not with me, btw) but my atty told me to be careful how much of his stuff we put out there because his salary pays my alimony. Would I LOVE to humiliate him that way?? Uhh….hell yes. Unfortunately it’s gonna have to be enough that the girl ( one of them anyway) that he was banging in all those places is now most likely being cheated on.

newme
newme
7 years ago
Reply to  Paintwidow

Please tell me how to report this so HR will listen! She reports to him and he would spend 2 hours in her private office every Friday!

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  newme

I have a male chump friend whose now ex is the head of HR and she cheated on work time with a male co-worker that’s still married. Even HR, which is the moral compass of a company has cheaters.

lovedandlost
lovedandlost
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

omg! What is it with HR? My ex cheated with my former friend who is manager of HR in a different co. Her ex is an employee of said Co. How can that not be a conflict of interest? especially since it is a gov dept!Wish I had pics to prove it sat the time but in Canada it only matters in the court of public opinion.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  newme

I find sending certified letters to the absolute top dog gets the best results.

Roberta
Roberta
7 years ago

Mine was nothing spectacular at all. I just realized one day that he felt he had choices and he certainly decided to exercise them. So, I finally woke up and realized that I also had choices and I wasn’t going to put up with his and Schmoopies “in your face” adultery anymore! His choice was Schmoopie and his new “cool” life with her, Mine was to file for divorce, get everything and kick his butt to the curb! Win/win! We both got what we wanted! Well…..at least I know I did. Him? Not so much!

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Roberta

I think that decision to grab your life away from a jerk WAS spectacular.
You took control of your destiny.
This is empowering to me. I am tired of being sad. I need to recognize my “choices”, as you did.

VulcanChump
VulcanChump
7 years ago
Reply to  Roberta

I thankfully wasn’t married to my guy, but I had a similar moment. Some friends of mine had been through tough times of their own, and my guy friend said “One day I hit a wall and had to decide what I wanted – the woman I love and my daughter, or something else entirely. Rhys will hit that wall at some point, I promise.”

On the day in question, I cried and sobbed my heart out, but you know, my guy friend was right. Rhys made his choice – so I made mine. Short of me telling him to fuck off when he tried to contact me a few months later, I never spoke to him again. There’s power in saying “This is what it is, and it’s not anything else.”

Loveydovey
Loveydovey
7 years ago

I too got an order of protection after he left our two children alone in a locked hot car to mess around. Still going through coparenting hell but definitely meh towards him.

Unchumped!

lostntx
lostntx
7 years ago
Reply to  Loveydovey

Wow, that is bad! I hope he didn’t get joint custody after that. It doesn’t get more selfish than that.

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  lostntx

lostnx, no doubt, it’s SO dangerous. Off thread, but important info: 60° outside, car can still heat up to well above 110 degrees. It only takes a 57-degree outside temperature to cause heatstroke. If 80°, temps inside car can reach deadly peaks in 10 minutes. More on site below. Two shocked me.

https://www.nbcnews.com/storyline/hot-cars-and-kids/death-hot-cars-facts-figures-prevention-n153776

loveydovey, just curious: how did he react before, during, or after court hearing? That kind of entitlement — wow.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

Claire,
So pertinent! I had to act the fool last week when I saw a little Yorkie gasping for air in a car.
And thank you deeply for your kind words about my Roxie. You are so well written and I love your vocabulary. You could help me get past this one hard level on Letter Garden. I am obsessed! It also helps fight insane urges to contact a cheating sociopath.

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

You’re a better woman than I; I have urges to do Serious Bodily Harm to a cheating sociopath. (ABOVE the waist, Chump Guys, above.)

I’d better start playing this Letter Garden game, pronto. (Had to Google it. I am such a dork about tech pop culture.) I’m going to start tonight. It looks fun!

I’m so glad my words reached you about Roxie. I inscribed your sentence into a favorite novel. And thanks for the compliment. Post D-day, I’m full of self-doubt on just about every level … so today’s stories are especially inspiring. And, uh, educational. 😉

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

Oh…..we are the same. I lull myself to sleep with homicidal ideation about my X and his harem. Especially for the bus stop tramp that answered his phone, would not put him on the phone and called ME crazy. And then hung up on me and turned off his phone. It is his fault she had access to his phone, but gall of these OW.

I love him and I want to beat him within an inch of his life. Cheating ruins everything. He killed us.

I told him: If he had done anything else horrible…anything….I could have worked with it. Shoplifting, insane tattoo, bar fight, gambling losses….but not betraying me sexually and emotionally.

ChompingChump
ChompingChump
7 years ago

I made him and his new wife (our former au pair) prove to me they don’t have HIV for the kids sake. GET TESTED OR WE FIGHT ABOUT THIS IN COURT. “What me? She couldn’t have given me an STD she is a good person.” GET TESTED. “I have no symptom of any disease, never had.” GET TESTED. “You misspelled a word somewhere in your email. So I just don’t understand what you’re saying. ” GET TESTED. “You get tested” (as though I hadn’t, first thing.) GET TESTED “See you were always like that. So irrational and fearful.” GET TESTED “Fine. But it’s so hard, nobody will give us an appointment.” GET TESTED “I don’t understand. What do you want me to get tested for?” GET TESTED “She’d never sleep around or do something like that.” (I’m laughing so hard, tears are coming out of my eyes at that one.) GET TESTED “Fine.”

horsesrcumin
horsesrcumin
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

Yep! ‘Mine’ – yeah right – threw an absolute tantrum when I discovered he was riding my former friend (in my home, etc) bareback and decreed testing was essential. ‘Don’t be ridiculous, she’s not sleeping with anyone else.’ Face fucking palm! He was never an angry man. He was scary furious I suggested such an obviously stupid thing. Yup. HPV and chlamydia. I only ever slept with him! Her? Not so much. Ugh. The cervical cancerous changes I still receive monitoring and treatment for are stupid. Real stupid. Thanks whores.

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  horsesrcumin

Do you think his rage stemmed from his already knowing what he’d done to you? It just seems so strange that a typically not-overtly-angry fuckwit would go postal over that detail.

I so hope you, and all the others affected by transmitted diseases, stay *relatively* well and that cures arrive soon.

horsesrcumin
horsesrcumin
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

At the time, early on in the piece, I think it was the entitlement, ClaireS. That he could fuck a maggot and get away with it scot-free. Zero consequences. And even a bit of total self mind fuckery (they really do believe this shit) that what he did could never affect me! He looks back on that period as one of total delusion, that he was so fucked in the head that he believed his own bullshit. As he said, if he heard that crap from anyone else, he would bitch-slap the crazy right out of them. If it was one of our kids’ partners ….

I consider I was somewhat lucky. The diseases he gave me, one was completely curable, and cured, and the other, I am monitored and treated for any changes. Without any known cancers in my extended family, and a reasonably healthy lifestyle, hopefully I can keep the changes from developing further. Have done for quite a few years so far! The worst of it (for my money) was that the maggot told him once – years ago, when we first started seeing each other – that he would get AIDS from me. I was totally gobsmacked. I was a virgin (I went to school with her, same small town) and she had slept with half the town, and then most of the city she moved to’s population. I didn’t get it. I know she was pissed off with him for ending their relationship (she was serial cheating on him, go figure!) and that he’d moved on a few months later. I honestly couldn’t work it out. I wondered if it was because it was the 80s, and my Dad had just a couple of years earlier been outed as gay? The moral panic of the times? That of course every gay man was infected, and anyone near them was affected by the contagion??? It was just so weird! But she is a fucked up result of a womanising arsehole father, and a piously religious mother. You don’t get a lot more fucked than that winning combo! Dumpster diving sure is the modus operandi of the cheater. Even if she has the veneer of successful CFO. You can’t make a silk purse out of a maggot – isn’t that the saying?

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  horsesrcumin

I would find it laughable if it wasn’t so serious about how angry these idiots get when found out due to their lack of morals, self control and brain cells. I wish you well but this betrayal truly does mess with our minds. It is still the one thing that leaves me in disbelief and sad. They really do, do us a favour when they leave.

horsesrcumin
horsesrcumin
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Or we leave them, Maree!

Just as an aside, all Sylvia mentions is pretty on the mark. Did a really interesting anthropology undergrad paper on livelihoods in this area, we were specifically looking at Laos, but Vietnam, Thailand and Cambodia were looked at also. And a friend of mine who is doing her Masters on development in Cambodia will back this up, impoverished and desperate people from these SE Asian developing nations have a subsistence lifestyle, it’s hard, and many are supporting large families in rural locations by remittance. Latching onto an old, white guy is hitting the jackpot. And keeping him sweet is their job description, they don’t want to lose the golden goose. If he thinks it is love, okay?!!

I am glad you are doing better, and the pain of the rejection of your kids is less painful than it once was. Let’s just see where his story ends up. And theirs too. If he has remarried a much younger woman, with kids, your kids are going to get a big fright when they discover daddy’s money is never going to reach them when he pops his clogs. I can’t imagine he has sewn that up legally in Australia, when he lives in Cambodia. But hey, at the end of the day, not your circus and monkeys, right? I can only imagine the pain, after all, the moneys, well, they are/were once, right? (But not anymore, adult children can sometimes be the pits!) comment image

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  horsesrcumin

Thank you horsesrcumin for your post. It is interesting but I truly do not care about my ex anymore and I am glad he has gone. I think my heart and brain struggled to process for quite some time the loss of my identity as a wife and a mother as well as the loss of my kids. The ex actually did me a favour which I couldn’t see at the time but he did and I am glad to be free of the predator although I pity the girl even though she is also a predator !! Not my circus and not my monkeys now!!

Shechump
Shechump
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Marie – ‘Not my circus and not my monkeys now!!’

You have passed into Meh-Town! Good for you, girl and congratulations.
What a painful journey.

When I read how life is in the foreign countries of Cambodia and Thailand, I was intrigued by what Sylvia wrote – obviously well travelled.
It gave ME comfort that your Idiot X will probably get his head knocked through a door someday.
And, your kids will come to their senses.

The whole point is, the grass is Not Greener on the Other Side.
Until you start watering it.
I have 3 large watering bowls for my dogs, and they will be the recipient of my nurturing.

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

I had to be tested at 61 years of age as the ex had been having sex with prostitutes in a 3rd world country. in S E Asia. This little pearl of information was kept from me and when I found out I was gutted as I had only ever been with my ex and he knew what that meant to me. I was sick to the pit of my stomach knowing he could betray me in such a cold and calculating way physically. I was used to the mental betrayal but the intimate betrayal was the end for me and I never even got “I am sorry” from the bastard. The bastard now lives with a prostitute in her country and I hope he rots there. In fact, I saw a photo taken of him just last week and I can tell you, living with a 24 year trollop and her boys in all that heat and filth is not doing him any favours. After nearly 2 years over there he looks absolutely terrible. He was never the best looking sort in the world but he took a good photo. Now he can’t even take a good photo. Maybe the karma bus is rolling on in and I hope so. I will never, ever get over what he did to me but I am beyond it now.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Maree,

It might ease your pain some to know that living in a South East Asia, unless you have loads of cash, is NOT a dream life. I imagine he is in Thailand. In Thailand, you have to be on your guard at all times about being ripped off if you are not Asian. There are 4 levels of prices, staring with the highest.
1. Japanese Tourist
2. American/British/Western Europe Tourist
3. Other Asians
4. Thais

I spent about 4 months in Thailand and Cambodia. Being a tourist with money to burn….great. Living there? No way. He is going to be looked to for negotiating, bargaining and “handling” business from his Thai Ho. Simple transactions like buying supplies or having a service performed will because exercise to see how much money can be made off him. Or a pissing contest between him and a Thai man. (Your X will lose).

He will have to be “on guard” at all times, both with his wallet and being perceived as insulting someone. Touching a Thai child on the head? Never! It is deeply insulting to Buddhists. He might get his ass kicked.

He will never be accepted as an equal in Thai culture. Never. “White” men who come and live with Thai (or Cambodian) women are seen as clowns who are being used. It is an open joke. They are ridiculed, but because they do not know the language, and no one tells them, they are clueless.
They are made to pay for everything…extended families included.

I wish I could afford to put up a billboard for Western Men: Thai women LOVE Thai men. They are not seeking Westerns because they can’t find love.

There is one reason. Money. (This is true of most mail order brides.)

Your X is being used, and I am 100% confident in saying that. After his funds run out, she will kick him to the curb with brutality. And she will have an army of cold eyed Thai men who will help her do it.

He is headed to beyond sadz sausage town. And without a Thai woman to translate their impenetrable language, he will be lost. Phonetically, you can pick up small phrases (I have an ear for languages) but reading it? Forget about it.

This would also apply to the Philippines, if he leaves the capital. (And I would NOT want to be in the Philippines right now…scary stuff).

When I finally left South East Asia, I felt a sense of relief. It is so hot, grippingly drippingly humid hot, and the smell of exhaust from the mopeds gets so old. It gets so…exhausting have to fight with people over simple prices. Being stared at every where you go. And not like Italian me…appreciative stares..just like mouth open, blank stare. I can’t stress to you enough- you need a lot of money to live in comfort in SE Asia. They are not stupid. They know Westerners want A/C. You better believe you will pay for it and private car transport.

When I would ride my moped, I had to tie a bandana around my nose and mouth due to the fumes. After a few days, it would be black. Buying a car over there is off the charts expensive.

What he did to you is an abomination from the bowels of hell. But know this: He-is-doomed. The minute…the nano second he can’t pay for what she or relatives want- it will be over and he might be homeless or beat up and left in the jungle.

Believe it and take comfort!

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

Sylvia, thank you so much for your post and I do appreciate your information as I don’t know much about SE Asia and really never had much of an interest until the ex went to live there. The ex is in Cambodia and he loves it. He is an extremely cunning person so he will be on his toes. Quite some time ago I did say to him that he has met his match and he is being scammed like he scammed me and all he could do was smirk. He has himself convinced that this 24 year old truly loves him at his grand age of 64. As they say there is no fool like and old fool and I will leave him to it as he has chosen this life. He does have considerable money at the moment but he is spending it like a man with no arms. How else can he keep a 24 year old happy and her boys and her family. Hell is waiting for him. As an aside, you are a very pretty young lady if that is you in the photo. Don’t let sadness destroy your beautiful face or mind.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Dearest Maree,
Thank you so much. I tried so hard to be pretty for my X. I do not understand why he did not value it…I cooked, smiled, picked out perfect movies, took on his problems. I am struggling with it today. I can’t slip up my fanatical no contact.Thank you for writing me. It helps I can provide this comfort to you.

Because listen…I KNOW Cambodia! I still have friends there, and I was there longer than I was in Thailand. I just Skyped with my French friend who runs a hotel there!

You rest your head easy tonight. You sleep sweet…BECAUSE Cambodia is dangerous and tricky.

Your X is not fluent in Khmer. I know he is not. It is harder than Thai! Cambodians on the whole are kind people in surface transactions.

BUT…they are desperately poor. Poor like we do not experience in the West. So, your X is in an impossible situation. He has to spend money to keep his Ho, and to not sweat to death, but there will be people watching. Guess who? The police. The government. Organized crime. Desperate strong young men…who make $3 a day.

The Cambodian police are far scarier than I can convey. They play the long game. They will watch, and wait, and watch some more. Cambodian women do not have any political pull or power, unless connected to a governmental official. The Ho cannot protect him. She could not even protect him from an angry shop keeper.

One day, it might be tonight, it might be next year…but the knock will come. It will be a thug, probably on the government payroll, and your X will be accused of something. It will go away…for a price. It will not stop. This is not “what if”. This is “it will” happen. If he was connected to an NGO or the United Nations…then no. But, some white dude living with a young Cambodian woman….TARGET.

I told the owner of a guest house I stayed in…” I think Cambodia is dangerous. And I don’t get scared in many countries.”

He said, and I am quoting…”If you do not understand you are in danger in Cambodia…YOU ARE IN DANGER.”

So, your X can strut around and act like a big shot…he is a fool. Sickening…many men go to Cambodia to have sex with children.

Who is setting it up? Cambodian men. Ruthless does not begin to describe some of them.

Hell is waiting for him HERE on Earth. I did not see many white men with Cambodian women. Not at all. It is all in Thailand. Do you know why?

Because they had enough sense to realize their life has very little value to people who make $100 a year.

I hope your pain eases and you treat yourself this weekend. That abomination can SMIRK all he wants:

THE JOKE IS ON HIM.

hellno
hellno
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

You are so so right, I remember talking to one old fool, who was shacking up with a twenty year old, he was boasting how they made better girlfriends because they had ‘twu wuv’,as CL would say, I told him ‘she only loves your money, and if you think I’m lying tell her you’re broke’. The exchange rate favors the US so you can live well on less money, but yes,as a foreigner, you’re walking around with a bullseye on your back and as Sylvia said, it’s just a matter of time

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Maree, what a scum bucket your ex is. Who runs off to live with a prostitute?! Who are these people?? Yuck. So sorry you had to go through this.

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Martha, I looked very hard at the photo of the ex and he looks evil. He is supposed to be smiling but it is almost like he was sneering at the camera. He is still very well liked back here in Australia by people who are either very similar to him or who are just plain weak and that includes our 2 adult children because they prefer their father and the prostit-tot to me. I am so over that now and I simply do not care any more.

brit
brit
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Maree, I’m so happy to hear that you have come to the point of not caring any more.
Your X is a shallow human being. Sounds like his face is revealing his true personality.
My X is well liked and comes across to the public as a charming, upstanding citizen.
It’s true that those who like him are like him or weak. I’ve been repeatedly disappointed and hurt by my son’s complete disregard for me. Not only has my son’s rejection from me been painful but he’s also taken advantage of my kindness.I’ve come to the point now where I can’t continue to make excuses for his behavior. What I find most disturbing is his lack of remorse or regard for my feelings. I didn’t what to believe he could be so cold hearted.
I don’t deserve to e treated like shit. I’m working on not caring and moving on.
It’s a heartbreaking decision but he’s left me with no other option.

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  brit

brit, I understand your pain with regard to your son. There is absolutely no excuse for his rejection and poor treatment of you. I know how much it hurts you and I wish I could make it better. I love my 2 kids and nothing will ever change that but I will no longer tolerate them disrespecting me and treating me badly. I, like you was and still am a good mother. My kids were everything to me but I have to let that go. Even though we are the adults so to speak, my kids are now middle age and I will just let it be. Keep reaching out brit and hopefully your son will start to see the error of his ways. I hope you have one or two very good and trusting friends to be by your side when you need them. ((((HUGS BRIT))))

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago
Reply to  brit

Maree, your ex looks like the Picture of Dorian Gray.

LovedaJackass
LovedaJackass
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Glad you’re still among us, Maree!

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  LovedaJackass

Thank you Sunny and LaJ. LaJ, I have always said “you can’t kill weeds” !! I will be around for some time to come dear friend. 🙂

Sunny
Sunny
7 years ago
Reply to  Maree

Sending you big long-distance hugs and XOXOXOs <3

Tempest
Tempest
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

ChompingChump–ugh. The nanny-fuckers are among the lowest.

yo
yo
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

It used to piss me off how he would hold Shmoopie up as a paragon of virtue. “Shes so sweet!” Helloooo shes cheating on your brother with YOU! But shes such a good person! She flashed her boobs at you in the hot tub while her boyfrieds back was turned. Sweet huh?

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  yo

Yes. Another couple common thread . Stbx women were all chaste as driven snow…

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  yo

Ugh. Awful. Did his brother ever find out?

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

Claire,
My X has had sex with the same…..critter that his brother has sex with when she was 18. She has 4 children from different fathers. She is not ugly (but she will be one day, due to her hard partying ways) but she preens and posts on FB as if she is Miss Universe.

She is a felon, a drug user and talks like a bad rap song.

And she is as bold as brass. No shame.

This pains me to type it…but he could not stop contacting her. Men I know….(professionals) would not spit on this woman if she was on fire. My X and I come from very different backgrounds socially and culturally. The first being that I am not a gutter cheater.

I would try to explain to him…did he not understand that normal men do not want women who have been so easy? That have been pumped more than the town gas station?

And, I have stopped checking, but about 6 weeks ago, she had proudly posted a photo of My X on her Fakebook page (not a typo).

Staying away from him is made easier when I truly grasp that he has no ethics. No moral compass is there.

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

How the heck do guys in their 40s and up even meet 18 year old girls to fuck? Never mind. That’s a path of depravity even I don’t want to google.

KFL
KFL
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

They have trusting caring wives who let the babysitter stay in their house when she doesn’t have a place to live. Then he decides to leave his wife of 20 years for the 21yr old sitter

Shechump
Shechump
7 years ago
Reply to  KFL

KFL – ‘Then he decides to leave his wife of 20 years for the 21yr old sitter’.

Please, tell me what’s IN this for the 21 yr old sitter.
I never would have been attracted to a man that old.
At least I knew that much.
He would have felt like my dad, my parent – wtf?
She sounds pretty off if she goes after that age when she’s young and nubile and all the guys around her the same age are pining.
This makes no sense other than I had a HS friend once who was determined once to make money off sex.
Have no idea where she is today.

Maree
Maree
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

Ian, you are a very decent man with morals so therefore you wouldn’t go there and it truly warms my heart to know that decent men like you do exist. If you ever change your mind I could put you in contact with my ex but it might mean moving to S E Asia!!

Roaring
Roaring
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

Wow. Just wow. The au pair – what a fucking cliche.

On D-day, I asked x if he used a condom (as far as I know, he has NEVER worn a condom).

He just giggled.

And I have a growth on my cervix after being monogamous for twenty years. Heeheefuckinghee.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Roaring

Roaring- He needed a beat down just for the giggles.

Renewed
Renewed
7 years ago
Reply to  Roaring

I am so sorry. Maybe he will get a growth….idiot!

ringinonmyownbell
ringinonmyownbell
7 years ago
Reply to  Renewed

Where I live, the Catholic nun associated with my nearby Catholic church does sex ed for the local Catholic kids as part of confirmation. She has been doing this for generations. ‘Sister Mary Potter’ is known all over my community for her approach to sex education. That is abstinence and pictures of the most diseased penises and poontangs you have ever seen. Seriously, you can kind of tell where the kids are in their classes by the look on their faces. The look of shock and horror lasts for about a week. Anyway, I think many of the men in our lives could benefit from some of the pictures from Sister Mary Potter. (I just googled ‘diseased penis’ and none of the images I found come even close to Sister Mary Potters catalog of horrors.)

PucksMuse
PucksMuse
7 years ago

I kind of want to hug Sister Mary Potter.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  PucksMuse

Bang on.
Many people who know me say I would have been happier living in “Little House on the Prairie” days…..that I am old fashioned.

Aside from most parts of the Internet, A/C, good coffee and access to pain killers…I am so okay with that.

We need more Old Fashioned. Anything does NOT go.

kaycan
kaycan
7 years ago

OMG, I just LOL’ed seeing “pootangs”. I swear, sometimes I’m 12!

Martha
Martha
7 years ago

As we all now Google “diseased penises”…….Holy crap! I didn’t even know stuff like that existed. Now a diseased penis or vagina would for sure be the best punishment for these cheaters.

Free Vixen
Free Vixen
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

This was so satisfying to read. Its such a perfect snapshot of what it’s like to deal with a cheater.

UXworld
UXworld
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

Love this.

Sad Shelby
Sad Shelby
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

“Whoremat doesn’t have any STDs! Her ex just slept around like crazy and she slept with him but she’s not like that! She would NEVER have an STD! You don’t have to get tested! When she found out she was pregnant with me after 8 days and a missed period (???) she went to the dr and got tested and they said no. She was clean.”

Okay well the whoremat and I are NOT on good terms like you two are. She’s a fucking slut and a skank and I AM GETTING TESTED! She’s a WHORE! Regular people do NOT sleep with married men! ESPECIALLY when they’ve actually CAUGHT their own husbands cheating on them!

Chump with a Cherry on Top
Chump with a Cherry on Top
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

What is it with the cheaters saying we are “punishing” them? As if!

Therapist Chump
Therapist Chump
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Mine had unprotected sex with the first OW even though she told him she had herpes. Who does that? Then I found internet searches, like ” can you get herpes from fingering someone?” dated before the time he told me the affair started. I wanted to vomit.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago

Therapist, I am so sorry. That is trauma. He was a real rocket scientist, huh?

He can be on the one way flight to Katmai Island where Tempest and my X are going for a Grizzly Adventure weekend. We are packing their coat pockets with snacks of salmon oil and Bits O Honey candy bars.

Therapist Cump
Therapist Cump
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

Thank you!! He told me, “Something’s wrong with me.” I replied, “You think?” Lol!! Boy would I love to see that!! I spend many nights lying awake thinking of all the bad things I wish would happen to him.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Therapist Cump

Me too. I worry sometimes about the detail my mind goes into. But, how else our we supposed to act?
Like a meek mouse after someone abuses us so egregiously?

This is what I know. My X….should be down on his knees, thanking whatever Gods he believes in (probably the god of Columbian Bam Bam)
that I….
Have SOMETHING TO LOSE.

Because if I did not, or a day comes when I don’t….He is going down. That is not tough talk. I mean it.
If the day comes, and the oncologist says, It’s Stage 4….you have 3-6 months….I am going to get medieval on his ass.

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Therapist Cump

Yup. Mine said the same. Something is wrong. So wrong in fact that he needed God and salvation. He said his behavior was ruining lives of people he loved and who cared for him. He kept doing it though.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago

So sorry, Therapist Chump 🙁 I hope your health if okay. What a piece of scum.

Therapist Cump
Therapist Cump
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Thank you! Thankfully, I do not have it. However, I did receive a letter from the doctor’s office stating that I had it (got the letter in the mail on a Friday evening). When I called the doctor’s office on Monday morning, they told me that someone had made a mistake. This was just one of the many horrible things he did. I could write a book. I am a therapist, who has been in therapy several years now, and I have been diagnosed with PTSD because of what he did. For example, he snuck out on his motorcycle and picked up a strange woman from this seedy motel in our town. At 2 am, the police were knocking on my door because the woman reported he raped her. He was never charged. I bet money that she was a prostitute, but that was never told to me. The police wouldn’t even tell me what happened. They said I had to talk to my ex to find out. My ex is now married to one of the OW. She was in our motorcycle group and thought she was a friend. I want so bad for everything to fall apart for him, but he seems to be able to fall back in his own shit and come out clean.

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Therapist Cump

Stories like these make me think what is the point? The truth is that a lot of these fuck ups end up okay cause we chumps are just speed bumps in the road of their lives of entitlement.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Mandie101

That’s great your health is fine, Therapist Chump. I hear what you are saying about wishing things would fall apart for your ex. I have the same wish too, but I don’t think it’ll ever happen. He’s a master liar and manipulator. He fooled me for 25 (however I was on to his pathological lying the last few years of our marriage.) He can easily fool another Martha for 25 years. He’s got loads of flying monkeys and a large harem of women and followers. Most everyone thinks he’s a “nice guy.” Well, they haven’t lived with him intimately, so how would they know he’s a narc? Like CL tells us, leave a cheater gain a life. I try not to think about him and I haven’t gone an entire day yet and I probably won’t if I keep visiting CL. lol. 🙂 Take care, Therapist Chump

lostandfound
lostandfound
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Mine told me that there was no reason for STD testing. He either meant that it wasn’t necessary because she was so “pure and clean” or he just never intended to touch me again.

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  lostandfound

Maybe it was because he figured he’d be dead by sundown.

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

?

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

Ian, do you know Cerebrus?! D-day morning …

Stunned, grim, and despite being petite, apparently giving off take-no prisoners vibe ….

“Tonight you will give me the details. This INSTANT you will drive straight to X Health Center and get tested. For everything.”

He: “We used condoms. Every time. For 5 years.”

I: “What part of ‘this instant’ do you not understand?”

He, utterly serious, “Got it. Not sure it’ll matter though.”

Annie Get Your Guns
Annie Get Your Guns
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

Three headed hell hound? Now that’s pissed.

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

This site…!

“Not sure it’ll matter though. I’ll probably be dead before dawn.”

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

I do not know Cerberus, but I have been reading Chump Lady for nine months now. Their words and stories are so unoriginal that they start to become like bad murder mysteries. You will be able to predict the ending by just knowing the characters.

ANC
ANC
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Yup. I also will chime in because the swinging, serial cheating MOW was declared “clean” by my non-condom using cheater. Hence, I have an STD!

Absolutely manslaughter because he KNEW she has herpes because in their true love transparency she told him!!! Weird that I wasn’t informed, not even when I was nursing infants.

The worst day of my life was when my doctor called me with the results of my STD panel. Worst day because there was a possibility that I may have transferred something really really really bad onto my sons unknowingly. Fuckers.

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  ANC

A simple! piece of federal legislation making it a crime to infect your spouse with an STI would go a long way to bringing real consequences to these cheaters.

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

Totally agree we need law changes in NZ too. My first rebellion came when I told the traitor what he has done to me for years is as bad or worse than using a date rape drug. He drugged me with lies. I didn’t consent to sex with someone who didn’t love me and was fucking his ex behind my back. I didn’t consent to go through six miscarriages with that. I consider it rape. He said I was vitriolic, he was all righteous indignation. I wish I could get him prosecuted.

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  Kiwichump

Just a nod to the fact that we have so many nations represented here in Chump Nation. US, Canada, England, New Zealand, Australia, Germany, Belgium, Ireland, Scotland, Mexico… so many more I am sure I seem rude for leaving one out. But good to know that it’s not just one continent overrun with cheaters.

And yes, kiwi. Until and unless courts start to see adultery as on par with any other sexual violence we won’t know justice. It was tied in with no fault divorces. Previously women couldn’t escape bad husbands because of ancient draconian divorces. Now there is such a lackadasical attitude toward cheating and children get hurt, people get robbed, and there are real consequences going unregulated that in other contexts get real jail time. Alas, that is a ways off. But if we can get gay marriage in eight years in the U.S., there is hope for adultery reform.

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

Yes Ian and Shechump, I also hope that with the momentum this site has created there may come public pressure for law changes. One is the return of fault divorce of course. The other would be some form of recognition for the frauds perpetrated in relationships whether married or not, the effects of emotional abuse on partners and entire families etc. A few test cases on the interpretation of existing laws might help too. People have tried to prosecute partners who knew they had HIV and didn’t tell, why not other STIs?
I am always shocked to read the court reports here and see people prosecuted for stealing $50 worth of groceries in a supermarket while the twisted cheaters get away with destroying people around them.
I also want to point out that on this site I have read many posts that showing that CN isn’t a collection of ultra conservative loons. We have same sex chumps and we understand that everyone here who committed honestly deserves honest commitment and respect in our consensual relationships. We are responsible adults expecting to live in a society that fosters responsible adult behaviour because that’s what a society needs from its adult citizens. Common sense! So I am pleased to see same sex marriage mentioned here too. When the campaign to legalise this was in full swing here, I must admit I was ambivalent until I realised how much the option to make this deep commitment meant by seeing the debates bring some couples to tears. I am not proud that it took me so long to get it! But I am glad it clarified for me how much being engaged to my partner meant in a wider context. Shame it turned out I was engaged to a traitor. The law change here has made it clearer that there is a fundamental different between de facto relationships and marriage and that people want a real choice between the two which are treated as equivalent in NZ. Vows, promises mean something so why does the law ignore this while it is possible to enforce a verbal contract in business transactions but not in relationships?

Shechump
Shechump
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

Ian – ‘But if we can get gay marriage in eight years in the U.S., there is hope for adultery reform.’

If there is one reason over many others of why I’m still here after this many years (3+), it’s because I see a vision from this site.
More and more people join everyday and I think all of us chumps would like to see more attention paid to problems of no-fault divorce states and alimony paid to cheating spouses. Obviously, this is very wrong and these laws need to be changed in marital court.
Same with providing for very emotionally damaged children in the aftermath.

Not that anybody I know IRL want to hear about the issues I talk about.
Most people I know now don’t want to hear it, and this is why the internet can be so powerful.

Well, C/L doing a Ted Talk would certainly help our underground movement!
We have Zero divorce support groups here and many who need help.

DavidB
DavidB
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

It is simple. And you would think, that in todays world of HIV and many strains of untreatable STDs, there would be a law. But since we have politicians whom have no morals and would be the first to go to jail…… there is little hope of this becoming a reality.

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  DavidB

Agreed, David.

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

And therein lies the rub. Not only for STI s but other immoral acts. Some bigwig is doing the dirty and consequences would offset the Apple cart.

Tempest
Tempest
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Mine told me I didn’t need to get tested because he’d always used a condom. Yeah…I’ll trust that…

Sad Shelby
Sad Shelby
7 years ago
Reply to  Tempest

Mine used a condom and somehow the whoremat ended up pregnant anyway and she “missed a period” only 8 days after they had sex. And it was DEFINITELY my STBX’s. I told my dr about all this when I went to get my STD check and she said the likelihood was like 2% that that could even happen and that it was 100% impossible to miss a period by days after 8 days from conception. But STBX had to believe her. Because the dr wouldn’t know better than some stupid slut would ?

Mavis
Mavis
7 years ago
Reply to  Tempest

How considerate of him Tempest

Beth
Beth
7 years ago
Reply to  Tempest

Yes I heard that too. But since my ex was cheating with multiple strippers and wasn’t wearing a full body condom and rinsing his ass kissing (literally) mouth out with germicide, that wasn’t very comforting. I got tested twice and made him test and send me the results. I’ll probably get tested again at some point even though it’s been 4 years since I had sex with him since I’ve read that some STDs can take awhile to be one symptomatic.

Renewed
Renewed
7 years ago
Reply to  Beth

What is it with ass and other forms of oral with basically strangers? X was not a kisser with me and boy am I glad. He thinks his mouth is impervious to STDs. Extra stupid!

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  Renewed

Dunno. The only time I am licking ass is if my tongue slips on a taint.

Jumper
Jumper
7 years ago
Reply to  Tempest

Mine too

DavidB
DavidB
7 years ago
Reply to  Tempest

Yes mine told me he always wore a condom. So I asked him, he said ummm no! Then I asked her again. She said well I had talked to him for a few days and he did not have a history of sleeping around and was safe. So you knew the 26 year old for 7 days. He obviously would be up front and honest about himself. So you got drunk with him and had sex. So drunk on that occasion you don’t remember exactly what happened. And that was a great idea. Oh don’t worry since she did not remember well the first time she went back for more. And did I say? she was not on birth control!
Thank God testing came back negative.

yo
yo
7 years ago
Reply to  DavidB

David. She put her own health at risk and subsequently, yours as well. She could have the decency to at least not lie about it. Smh. These cheaters just dont care about anything.

Gonegirl
Gonegirl
7 years ago
Reply to  yo

I had to go to my gyn, who also happens to be one of my best friends from college and get tested. Imagine the embarrassment. I didn’t ask him to get tested, because he was not touching me again and I frankly did and still don’t care if he gave her something.

Louisvilleflower
Louisvilleflower
7 years ago
Reply to  Gonegirl

STBX is a physician. My doc was a colleague. When I told her what had gone down, she said “wow, what a cruel asshole.” Of course she wouldn’t say anything, privacy laws… But, it felt REALLY good that someone he had professional interaction with knew how awful he was. He always plays the devoted dad/husband at work. And the esteem of his peers is really important to him. Small victory for righteousness.

Renewed
Renewed
7 years ago
Reply to  Tempest

My x also said the same. According to him hs AP was clean even though she was married living with her hubby. Hubby was hitting it raw by the way, vomit!

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Renewed

Yes. The skanks were all clean. So no condoms.The one living with a man and sleeping with three other managers. The one who was engaged. Yes. They were all clean till STD hit. I mean that would be the first thing on my mind with a new sex partner.

ringinonmyownbell
ringinonmyownbell
7 years ago
Reply to  Renewed

Mine had spill some very hot soup on his wandering dick. It healed up a bit but left read blotches all over where the soup had touched it. He forgot about the soup incident but I didn’t. So one day he comes in with this horrified look in his eyes that his precious wander pecker was diseased. (I knew immediately what it was about) But I ‘freaked’ out and said that Goddamit you have caught something from slunty. (He knew slunty slept around) So I sent him down to the public health department where he had to drop his pants in front of my girl friend, a public health nurse, who alas was too professional to tell him he had ‘dickilessdropoffia’ a form of leprosy… But I have to say I still smile when I think of this.. So I think that was a bit rebellious. Man I am so glad that that dick has dicked off to another location with the same slunty.

BetterDays
BetterDays
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Definitely a whole post on its own. When I told Cheese Fries I’d gotten STD tests, he told me that was bitchy.

Working It Out
Working It Out
7 years ago
Reply to  BetterDays

Mine agreed immediately to testing, and gave the results without prompting.

PucksMuse
PucksMuse
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

“How dare you make me deal with the consequences of my actions! You’re PUNISHING ME with reality!”

theotherwhitemansburden
theotherwhitemansburden
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Oh yes, mine also felt like asking for STD tests was being irrational and vindictive. Because what’s nice and rational is sleeping with prostitutes around the world and giving STDs to your nursing wife, while secretly getting yourself treated for said STDs. Asking for tests is just irrational and vindictive.

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago

This one takes the cake! So sorry you were married to that. Hope you are far away from him!

unicornomore
unicornomore
7 years ago

there is a special place in hell for him

chump-tastic
chump-tastic
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Oh I found out my ex had given me an STD while sitting in the exam room at the hospital, VERY pregnant, during a routine pregnancy checkup. It was super cool.

ArmchairPsychology
ArmchairPsychology
7 years ago
Reply to  chump-tastic

Talk about endangering the life of your child… He’s awful

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  chump-tastic

As I discovered….they take us so low…to places we never believed we would be.

happily never after
happily never after
7 years ago
Reply to  chump-tastic

another member for the 9th circle of hell.

Tania Rochelle
Tania Rochelle
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Mine was furious the day I went to get my own STD testing, because it was was “stressful” for him.

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Tania Rochelle

Mine was pissed I used money from the joint account to get tested.

geekmom
geekmom
7 years ago
Reply to  Mandie101

I paid for testing out of the joint account too, and made sure the transaction memo said “payment for monogamous wife’s STD screening.” That appeared on the bank statements I submitted to the court; small potatoes, but still satisfying.

Susan
Susan
7 years ago
Reply to  geekmom

Mine was embarrassed that I had testing done! How could I do that to him!!!! OMG!!!

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  geekmom

That doesn’t sound like small potatoes to me. Like many small victories here, it’s potent. It’s potent both in content and symbolic value. (And, of course, as CL notes, fighting back against power and balances and power plays starts with small acts of resistance.) For example:

Joint account and “monogamous wife”: WE have shared a life, I’VE been loyal, and YOU will (partly) foot the bill for endangering me.

Transaction memo as a whole: You don’t get to lie anymore, to betray without consequences. I’m not going to roll over. And the conspiracy of silence/lies is hereby punctured. Publicly.

Don’t care what kind of jurisdiction you’re in, had I been judge or his attorney, I’d have been impressed. Hope you don’t mind if I steal this brilliant little maneuver of yours!

getting real
getting real
7 years ago
Reply to  Tracy Schorn

Good God. I thought I was the only one who heard that BS flapping from my cheater’s mouth. Seriously?

Sunny
Sunny
7 years ago
Reply to  getting real

No. First thing you do once you suspect infidelity is RUN, not walk to the nearest place that will do a full panel STD screen. Conversely, that’s how I found out X#1 was cheating on me all those years ago – I started having symptoms I shouldn’t have had. 🙁

ArmchairPsychology
ArmchairPsychology
7 years ago
Reply to  Sunny

Ugh! I just saw two pregnant patients last week (OB/GYN rotation) that found out about spouses cheating because they were diagnosed with an STD. My heart melted. One of them said she couldn’t leave him because she was reliant on his income, the other just said it was a “bad test,” but took the treatment.

madavis4
madavis4
7 years ago
Reply to  getting real

Yes please, make it its own post!!

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  madavis4

+1

Shechump
Shechump
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

I demanded an STD test immediately for both of us.
Has horribly embarrassed but went to the doctor and got it done.

And, doh me – I forgot to ask him for the results!!
I guess I didn’t care as, at least I was clean and that’s all that mattered cuz his scuzzy mouth would never get close to mine again.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  ChompingChump

Wow, your exes new wife is really bright, hey? 😉 You are MIGHTY ChompingChump! I myself got tested for EVERYTHING just in case. I wasn’t about go into my new life with any STD. Who knows what the fuck he did all those years and he could so easily lie to my face about any subject matter. He could easily have lied about never having any sexual contact with anyone during our marriage. I was done believing him and needed to do what was best for me.

Christine M.
Christine M.
7 years ago

I found out about the cheating on a Sunday morning. I spoke to a lawyer that day. (It helps that she is my cousin!) Went through the whole day normally (apple picking and out to dinner with the kids) and confronted him that night and kicked him out of the bedroom. It took me two months to convince him to leave the house. The divorce is final now. I got the house, three of the four kids wont see or talk to him, and things are better.

hellno
hellno
7 years ago
Reply to  Christine M.

You rock,now that’s the way to do it

ClaireS
ClaireS
7 years ago
Reply to  Christine M.

Christine M. and Physicsgal, impressive!

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago
Reply to  ClaireS

Yay for you girls, you’re champs. I wish I had been like you.

Physicsgal
Physicsgal
7 years ago
Reply to  Christine M.

About six weeks after discovery, on a Wednesday night, when he came to bed (after pink cow FarmVille FB messaging), I rolled over and said he needed to talk to his brother about moving in with him on Friday. That Friday, I drove my daughter to her swim tournament and then dropped him off at his brothers house. Took me and my son home and never looked back.

neverwouldhaveimagined
neverwouldhaveimagined
7 years ago

I kicked him out after the last DDay, but he was trying to charm his way back in to my good graces.

He came over when knew the hot water heater was out. He is a so NOT mechanically inclined pencil pusher, but I found him in the garage messing with it because the know-it-all thought he was so smart and could fix anything.

I was trying to show him that when you google his OW’s name, her mug shot pops up and was asking him why would you forsake your family for that? He refused to respond but then asked for my phone so he could look up the hot water heater. I just snapped.

I literally kicked him out of the garage shouting, “You broke our vows and broke our family, and now you’re going to break my hot water heater, too?! GET OUT! Get out of my garage! And get out of my life!!

And then I took his remote to the gate of our community and changed all the lock codes. Needless to say, we now exchange for visitation at locations away from the house. Later, I sent him an email stating the water heater, like him, had hidden issues, could no longer function properly, and had to be discarded.

I included the bill since I put it on his credit card. (Our finances had not been separated yet.) He never said a thing to me or my lawyer about it. Ha.

Roaring
Roaring
7 years ago

Finally, ! A CHEATER appliance that no longer works!

Glad he was emasculated in this particular way – every choice he makes, from rutting to repair reveal him to be an asshole and he’s not fooling anyone, not even himself!

ForgeOn!
ForgeOn!
7 years ago
Reply to  Roaring

ROTFLMRO!!!!!

Chump Nation is THE BEST!

Still…….ROTFLMRO!!!!

Ian Dubito
Ian Dubito
7 years ago
Reply to  ForgeOn!

ForgeOn!

So many chumps checking-in on this post. We need some kind of accreditation for chumps who have gained a life and come back periodically to share the good news from the other side!

ForgeOn!
ForgeOn!
7 years ago
Reply to  Ian Dubito

Hey Ian! How goes it?!
LOVE reading all your comments, as well as everyone else’s!

This post has been one of the most amazing, crazy, healing, insightful smorgasbords of laughs, wisdom and caring! 750 comments!!! Un-freakin’-believable!

You have a very good suggestion there, Ian. Tracy and now our Precious Tempest are the most accredited of former chumps, so they may have some thoughts on that.

Is so true that once we get ‘to the other side’, we need to continue our clarion calls to those still wandering. I myself benefited greatly from such calls when I first landed here in Feb of 2014 and will do what I can to return the favor.

I do indeed intend to continue to read,,,,and post when I have a moment, in order to comfort and empower any and all who find their way here.

You will soon be ‘one of us’, Ian. You are ‘getting there’. As Winston Churchill said: “When going thru H___, KEEP GOING!” ‘Tis so important to NOT loose your momentum.

Please, you too be one who can be ‘accredited’ once you make it to ‘the other side’. Our men chumps are so valuable and precious.

Love to you, Ian…..and Love to all, as we…..ForgeOn!!!!

UnknownComic
UnknownComic
7 years ago

“Later, I sent him an email stating the water heater, like him, had hidden issues, could no longer function properly, and had to be discarded.”

OMG – this made my day! You are mighty.

ChumpChanged
ChumpChanged
7 years ago
Reply to  UnknownComic

+1

GiveTimeTime
GiveTimeTime
7 years ago
Reply to  UnknownComic

“Later, I sent him an email stating the water heater, like him, had hidden issues, could no longer function properly, and had to be discarded.”

^^ love.

(I’m guessing that heater no longer made you hot, either)

neverwouldhaveimagined
neverwouldhaveimagined
7 years ago
Reply to  GiveTimeTime

Lol

Martha
Martha
7 years ago

My first un-chump moment I’ve probably told quite a few times already here, but here it goes: Jeffrey Dahmer (that’s my new name for him thanks to Tempest) was sitting across the bed from me. We were talking post the Divorce Letter he gave to me. I was still doing the Pick Me Dance and trying to save our marriage. I told him that I wanted to understand why he needed to have such close female friends. What he calls “healthy female friends.” Yeah, I was stupid for saying that, but I was still in the fog. He then went on to tell me, “I gave up Sally for you. I gave up Mary for you. I gave up Anne for you.” Those are not their real names. He gave up all these women for me WHILE WE WERE MARRIED! How nice of him to do that for me! He then went on to tell me that he didn’t love me anymore. Funny how just a couple months before he “loved me so much!” I was instantly un-chumped and divorced from him in my heart at that exact moment. After he left our bedroom, I opened up the container that I saved the first and ONLY rose petals that he gave to me 25 years prior. Petals that I saved and cherished. I flushed them down the toilet. I then threw away all the negligees that I bought for him. And all the sex toys went in the garbage too. I was done and divorced emotionally from him. That was the start of the rage and anger building towards him and it took me another year plus to get all the anger out and go as much NC as I can see since I can’t go 100% because of the kids.

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Jesus Christ! I know you are a Christian Martha and so am I, but what do these fuckers want ( rosary tonight)? Negligee. Sex toys. Sentimental. Intelligent. Dutiful. Willing to listen and understand. What do they really want? It is shit like this you know you gave more than these Aps in every way. Sexually most of us were no prudes. I sure wasn’t. What the hell is it? Yes. I know disordered but Jesus….

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Mandie101

Mandie101, like CL and everyone said, they want cake. It’s tough to fully grasp it even still now. I seriously don’t know how I could have been a better wife. Trust me, I know I’m not perfect and like everyone in the world, I’ve made mistakes. But I in no way deserved to be treated like that! I’m not ugly. I always kept my weight down to make sure I was attractive to my husband and trust me, that wasn’t always easy. I think my body was still hot considering I was 48 years old at the time and had two kids. He told me all the time how hot I was. I wonder if that was a lie, too? I’m smart and up on current events up to a point, so I can have an intelligent conversation. I kept the house organized and clean with no help from him. I did all the meal planning, grocery shopping and cooking. I tried my best to be a good cook and baker. When we first got married I was a great cook. I tried my best. Every. Single. Time we went out for dinner, he’d order chicken. So, I figured I needed to get better at making chicken. So I did. Lots and lots of delicious chicken recipes. Then he switched to fish. Every. Single. Time he’d order fish. Made me feel like I wasn’t making enough fish at home, so I made more fish. He’d never have to say anything to me. His actions made me feel like I wasn’t doing cooking to his liking. But when I told him I’d no longer be cooking for him after he asked for a divorce. What the fuck did he make for himself every night for dinner. Pasta and jarred sauce. Where was the fucking fish?! I jumped through hoops in bed. He sucked in bed for the first 12 years of our marriage. Sex was all about him. Obligatory kissing for a few minutes, grab at my breasts, grab my private parts, move my hand to his penis, make him feel good, penetration and done. I can’t tell you how many times I cried during sex. And he knew I was crying but never cared to ask why. Eventually I got the courage to tell him that I didn’t like how things were going (I think I was kind and gentle when I said it — I hope so) and he did improve. I had to teach him like a dog. Only a selfish person needs to be taught how not to be selfish. Things got better and then great. And now I realize it too was all a sham. He was never making love to me. He was having sex with me. And all the shit work I did for his family. Yeah, I was a chump and they used me like my ex did. How do I know this? Because they threw me away like trash when I spoke up for myself to my ex-monster-in-law. I could go on and on about how worked harder to try to be a better person, do something different, improve myself, twist myself, but it was never ever enough! Like I said. I’m not perfect. I see women who are long-time happily married and they talk shit about their husbands, lots of times in front of their face and don’t treat their husbands half as well as I did, but they are still married. I don’t get it. I will never get it. CL told me to fix my picker and figure out why I settled for a fuckwit. I’m working on that. Now pass me a piece of cake!

Sad Shelby
Sad Shelby
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

I was one of the imperfect wives. We didn’t have enough sex, I know we didn’t. He wanted me to want him and I did, but he was emotionally not connected so much of the time it’s hard to get horny for someone that isn’t even there! And now here we are. He cheated and I still loved him. But apparently I was in this relationship all by myself for who knows how long because he DIDN’T speak up! And now I have ten years of regrets for everything that could have been but wasn’t because he didn’t say enough and neither did I

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Martha,
This has long puzzled me as well. I don’t know how to analyze this, but I see women who are..not cute, well groomed or anyway sexy (and I have a huge space of what this can mean, all shapes and sizes can be attractive) but the more important point is: they sort of snarly and hateful. They don’t clean or cook, they snap and order their husband around. They can’t find Peru on a map. They spend money like Imelda Marcos.
And the husbands follow them around like lap dogs. They are afraid of them (it seems).

I was not perfect with my X, but I was…always striving to be. The only thing I ever did wrong (ACCORDING TO HIM) was ask him not to bring illegal drugs around me and stop coming around me high. I also asked him to stop talking with tramps and whores who did these drugs.

This is all we ever argued about. *And it was the two things he was committed to as a cat is to sleeping.*

Please don’t let game playing be the only way to be in a relationship. I don’t have the energy. If I like you, I like you. I am not playing hard to get at 40. I can’t pretend.

I will just be lonely. 🙁

Chumptacular
Chumptacular
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

Women who are narcissistic and who have chosen co-dependent men as mates are often the ones you see who make little to no effort in relationships with men who are devoted to them.

Also, two emotionally healthy people can negotiate their way in a relationship where one may not be a good cook or a fashion plate. As long as the couple is respectful, honest and loving with each other, what does it matter if one dresses in sweats or if one is not a great cook?

Sometimes when I am out, I will see a couple seemingly devoted to one another and I will think, “Well, I look just as good if not better than her but she has a devoted man and I don’t.” Then I remember that XH is probably a narcissist psychopath and that the man in the couple probably isn’t.

Sad Shelby
Sad Shelby
7 years ago
Reply to  Chumptacular

Makes me feel like I was the narc at the beginning because he was devoted to me. And then I became the codependent and he turned narc and left me in the end. I just feel horrible over all and I fear I broke a good and loving man and turned him into a monster. Because we used to be so happy and now he’s just angry and bitter from my perceived rejections of him.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

I agree with Tempest, Sylvia. You sound like a lovely person from what you write and what you were asking of your X is a reasonable want in a relationship. Hugs to you.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Thank you. I work from home…so unless someone parachutes through the roof, I am going to take the suggestions for Meet Ups. I am SO done with online dating. I can’t take it.

NorthernLight
NorthernLight
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

Sylvia, I have a friend who ended up falling in love with the contractor who was doing renovations on her house. So maybe someone could end up almost parachuting through the roof someday, you never know. 🙂 But Meet Up sounds like a great way to meet new people (new friends and possibly dating prospects too) in a low-key friendly environment doing interesting activities.

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

Same here Sylvia, I was a devoted partner, not perfect but totally dedicated and loyal, sexy, competent, intelligent and hard working. I know I am attractive, I got a lot of attention and interest from other men although I didn’t want it. I treated the traitor like a king in his lazyboy throne. And I was just as good in my previous relationships. I’ve always been struck by those snarly bitches that get men to run around after them like servants. I studied them and thought I should try to do that but I just don’t know how to. I can’t make myself do that. Damn, I am 52 and still don’t know what men want!! The traitor has won, he’s killed my sexuality, it’s gone, the thought of someone touching me makes me sick. I just want to be with my pets and my livestock. I know I must be wrong but my faith in humanity is dead. Yet I read you guys here, so I must be wrong!

brit
brit
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

I’ve had the same thoughts Sylvia, when I see other couples who are in long term marriages and know the wife doesn’t cook, doesn’t clean, complain about their husband,sometimes in front of them, they look like they don’t care about their appearance, some wear stained clothes and would be considered obese, have nice looking husbands, their husbands seem to adore their wives. Everyone has their own priorities I realize. I planned our meals, shopped and cooked for them, cleaned, paid bills, dressed appropriately, cleaned and tried my best to have a happy home and family. Not saying I was perfect but I tried my best.

Tempest
Tempest
7 years ago
Reply to  brit

My sister always remarks that she and I went to the wrong Princess school (evidently not the one where we were trained to only accept men who worshiped us).

brit
brit
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

I’ve had the same thoughts Sylvia, when I see other couples who are in long term marriages and know the wife doesn’t cook, doesn’t clean, complain about their husband,sometimes in front of them, they look like they don’t care about their appearance, some wear stained clothes and would be considered obese, have nice looking husbands, their husbands seem to adore their wives. Everyone has their own priorities I realize. I planned our meals, shopped and cooked for them, cleaned, paid bills, dressed appropriately, cleaned and tried my best to have a happy home and family. Not saying I was perfect but I tried my best.
Makes me wonder if I would have been more appreciated if I hadn’t been so accommodating.

Tempest
Tempest
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

Sylvia–you will never be lonely. Your warmth emanates across the bandwith, as I’m sure it does in person. I cannot imagine you will want for people who want to share their time and love with you. (But a lesson to us all–avoiding loneliness does not mean dating, or necessarily finding that “special someone.” Loneliness is kept at bay by surrounding ourselves with people who are enthusiastic to be with us, romantically or otherwise.)

neverwouldhaveimagined
neverwouldhaveimagined
7 years ago
Reply to  Mandie101

Cake. Cake. Cake.
They want cake. The more the better.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Mandie101

They want it all. They want the cake, the pie, the eclair, the torte, the taco, the money, the conpliments, the clean house and none of the work, sacrifice, loyalty, rules, boundaries or limitations that gets you those goodies. A subset of them also enjoy duping and hurting people who love them.

Renewed
Renewed
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

Exactly!

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Renewed

Thanks. Still argh!

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

That’s perfect, Sylvia. You get it and said it in a lot of less words than me. haha. 🙂

KarenE
KarenE
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

That sums it up well, Sylvia!

just around the bend
just around the bend
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

“What he calls “healthy female friends.”

Kind of like “healthy snacks…” A nice label but he’s not letting you know what that really consists of……

““I gave up Sally for you. I gave up Mary for you. I gave up Anne for you.””

This is the usual attitude of people who value “friendships” and believe that they are on par with a marriage.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago

Yep! “Healthy female friends.” That’s him trying to justify to me that it’s all perfectly healthy and normal. He even went so far to say to me that he wished I had “healthy male friends.” I have male friends at work. We talk about work and family stuff. I would never in a million years go out for coffee, lunch, dinner, or drinks with them. I’d never text or email them. The “funny” thing is that just before my 20th high school reunion, I got in touch with a guy that I dated for two weeks in high school. My husband even encouraged I’d email and see how he was doing. We emailed back and forth catching up. Nothing was hidden as all the emails came to our family email address. The friend from high school asked if we could meet the day after the reunion to catch-up face-to-face. Now he lived in MN and I lived in NY. We were at the reunion in WI and I probably would never see him again. I asked my husband if he minded if I met him for a few hours the next day. This was the first and only time in my marriage that I ever met alone with a guy. My husband said he didn’t mind. I was gone for two hours and we just sat in his truck by Lake Michigan. We talked and caught-up more with life. That was it. He drove me back to my moms where my husband and kids were staying. My husband looked soooo jealous! Now mind you. This is after 13 years of me putting up with him going out for lunch dates with women. And having lots and lots of close female friends. I wasn’t supposed to be insecure about that! No way! It was totally fine for him to do it, but not me. And I wasn’t even hiding it. The friend even came into my moms home and said goodbye to everyone, including my husband. Once back home in NY, a week later he said to me, “If you are pregnant, at least we know it’s not mine (my ex had a vasectomy.) So him seeing women behind my back was okay, but if I saw someone one time and one time only, I had sex with the guy? Hmmmm. Projection much? Yeah, Jeffrey Dahmer thinks it’s perfectly fine for him to have as many close emotionally intimate relationships with as many women as he’d like, but I couldn’t have one friend that I would never ever see again. Things that make you go, hmmmmmmmmmm

Catlady Chump
Catlady Chump
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Yep! Mine was at our second and final marriage counseling session when he said, “I don’t love Catlady anymore.” It was like a switch flipped in me and I was just completely done. It was an incredibly hurtful thing to say after 23 years of marriage. Of course, it wasn’t until several weeks later that I got proof of the latest affair, which explained everything to me.

Hopeful Cynic
Hopeful Cynic
7 years ago
Reply to  Catlady Chump

One of my main moments (it was a snowball rolling downhill sort of thing) was also in marital counselling, second appointment, when the therapist asked him if maybe he wanted out of the marriage but was too cowardly to say so and he just looked down and mumbled “yeah, that.”

Then, a half hour later as he was dropping me off at work, I took off my rings, he gave me his debit and credit cards that were on my account, and then he asked me for one last kiss.

I will forever be grateful to that counsellor who was so much more perceptive than I was about a man I had known for over twenty years. But it took that little desire for a goodbye kiss from my ex of all of half an hour to hammer home that he had no sense of what was respectful or appropriate and never would.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Hopeful Cynic

He asked for a goodbye kiss?! Asshole! Hopefully you didn’t give him one. My ex grabbed me, kissed me passionately and told me he loved me. Seven hours later he’s sitting across from me in the basement, reading off the Divorce Letter that he wrote four days prior all day at work. Two days after he wrote the Divorce Letter, he grabbed and held my hand for the first time in months at church (gave me hope!). At his parents house the same day, I was sitting by myself on the couch and he came and sat right down next to me and snuggled with me. An hour later he gave me and his mom a group hug (once again giving us all hope.) A few weeks prior to this, I managed to pull-off another beautiful and delicious Thanksgiving, even though I was extremely depressed (post D-day), couldn’t eat and couldn’t sleep. After dinner, in front of everyone, he grabbed me and kissed me passionately. Mind you, he hadn’t kissed me passionately since D-Day. His aunt even said, “Get a room!” And now looked at all this as what a big fake he is in public. He did all of this, sans that day he asked me for divorce, to perform to his audience of admirers. Jeffrey Dahmer is such a nice guy! What a great husband he it! Look how wonderfully he treats his wife! But when the admirers were not around, he did not act like this. A total con man. A total wolf in sheep clothing. A total parasitic predator of women.

Mandie101
Mandie101
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

WTF! Like seriously! What is wrong with these people?! Stbx had a script like yours. Lay it on thick in public. Sometimes I’d wonder what was going on. At home? He was an utter bitch ( sorry female dogs) . At his family functions he’d get me a plate drink and ask what I wanted. Anywhere else… would not bother. Sends me flowers for my birthday when I was away studying. Never did that while I was home. I could go on. I hate people who play with peoples emotions. Yes . Hate. It is a deceitful act that as I’ve read here often amounts to a raping of the soul.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  Mandie101

Mandie,
That is text book narcissistic image control. My X would pump other women’s gas at the fuel pump (GAG).
He would leave waitresses these jaw dropping tips (which I would go back and retrieve…more than the bill) and it was all to cultivate his

“aww shucks, I am just a country boy”.

Another nauseating thing I learned about my X is that he is a gossip. One of the best compliments I receive (over and over) is that I do not gossip. I think it is a cousin to be in a two face.

Truly, I mind my own business. I would hear this fool, on my deck, just digging into other’s people business. I would be curled up with the Norton Anthology of Women’s Lives, and he is dishing with some clown about so and so.

I said, Are you an old woman at a beauty shop? Mind your own business!

It was a prurient interest in the misfortune of others. Not sexy. Not masculine.

Shechump
Shechump
7 years ago
Reply to  Sylvia is Sad

SAD – ‘I said, Are you an old woman at a beauty shop? Mind your own business!’

Ok, I expect some wrath from somebody over this but, to quote Pulp Fiction, ‘When you little scamps get together, you’re worse than a sewing circle.’

It’s been my experience, seriously, that most of the men I know gossip at least as bad as women, if not far worse!

MsChumpleton
MsChumpleton
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

My ex did fake lovey-dovey affectionate crap too during the whole “maybe we’ll reconcile” phase. It was just a show to keep me pacified so maybe I’d forgive or forget what I had seen him doing. I kind of started to fall for it but luckily I trusted my intuition that something seemed off. He was just trying to pacify me to keep up appearances and stop me from getting a lawyer. It kind of worked until he insisted he wouldn’t stop seeing his 19-year-old “friend”. Then the threats came out and finally the divorce. My biggest regret is not getting my shit together and hiring the meanest lawyer I could find immediately.

Lyn
Lyn
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Martha, first of all I love your new name for your ex. Jeffrey Dahmer suits him fine!

My ex was also giving me all kinds of mixed messages, and all this was going down as I was having to entertain his family and our married kids of Christmas. Absolutely the worst time ever. I would sit there and silently cry and my ex would come over and ask “what’s wrong?” and I’d say, “I’m crying because this might be the last time I’ll ever have Christmas in this house with everyone (we were married 31 years, together 36). He looked really sympathetic and when I went to bed early, he came up and put his arms around me and held me all night. Then a day or two later he’s distant and depressed and pushing me away. It was so frickin’ confusing. At this point he’s just told me he’s “fallen out of love with me,” but I don’t know the whole truth of what’s going on with him, although I’m pretty suspicious there’s someone else. Anyway, the ambiguous message make your head want to explode. It’s like you’re getting hit on the hopium pipe every once in awhile, and it’s just enough to keep you from giving up. For the longest time I kept thinking he had a brain tumor or a serious mental illness that suddenly manifested. I kept thinking he would “wake up” and realize he was destroying me and our family. I swear, I now understand what it’s like for people to go through detox after having to force myself to break the bond I had with him after all those years.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Lyn

“I kept thinking he would “wake up” and realize he was destroying me and our family. Yes, Lyn, I had those thoughts too. He was destroying me, our children and our family that we (mostly me) built together. And he did it without one tear being shed for what he did to me or the kids. The only tears he shed were for himself. Jeffrey Dahmer/Sad Sausage. He sat there as cold as ice while I’ll cried and shook uncontrollably. He was robotic when both of our children were crying hysterically. He tried the “Mom and I no longer want to be married to each other anymore” and I shut that shit down as soon as that lie came out of his mouth. It was ALL HIM! This is what he wanted. He wanted to be a cheater and a liar and an adulterer and a con man and predator of women. That’s what he wanted and that’s what he can now be. He can be his dream man for himself. He didn’t and still doesn’t give a shit what he did to me or the kids. Why would he? We were never a priority for him EVER! It’s easy to feel no feelings of empathy towards your wife and kids when you are a narcissist. Lyn, I’m sorry you too when through the mind games. Loving one moment and the next a cold and indifferent man. I have said this for a long time, but only a evil person can act this way towards another human being. I could never in a million years do this to another person. Never!

GetMeFree
GetMeFree
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

Lyn and Martha, mine put me through these same mind games. One minute he said that the kids and I could have the house and I could just pay him his half from my retirement account and the next he was “hurting and wanted a hug”. One minute he was saying that he had to cheat because I was so awful for getting upset over his drinking and staying out all night and the next “he didn’t deserve me”. Wtf?

Sooooo many more scenarios like this and I was 6 months pregnant at the time. Months of this went on until I finally found out about the 23 year old he was seeing. This type of person has no empathy. It is always about them and manipulating you to get you to”fall in line” with what they want in any given moment. Their brains are disordered.

No contact (or minimal with kids) is the only way to go. You have to stop them from messing with your mind long enough to start seeing this crap for what it is. Once I did that, I got stronger and began to heal.

brit
brit
7 years ago
Reply to  Martha

I’ll never understand how anyone can walk out on their family without any remorse or regret or empathy for the carnage they’ve left behind.
In my case the evil is relentless. You’re right Martha it’s easy when you never loved them in the first place.
It’s devastating to realize the life and and the person who you shared the last 25 years with was an imposter and never existed.

Louisvilleflower
Louisvilleflower
7 years ago
Reply to  Lyn

I went the brain tumor/mental illness/ midlife crisis route too.
I wish it had been a brain tumor.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago

Haha, I have wished he’d have a brain tumor too, but he supports me for now and I only wish health and peace on him. Plus a STD that will infect his penis. Gosh, I had no idea that penises could get so messed up! A few years ago I had this big eruption next to my private parts. It hurt so bad. Probably something my ex passed along. And I had something that was greenish coming out of my vagina. Probably something nice from the ex. He managed to not give me much to make me feel special, but the things he gave I’ll never forget.

Gonegirl
Gonegirl
7 years ago

My moment of rebellion came when he yelled and screamed at me calling me names in front of OW. The icing was when I started crying and he gave me the finger. I looked at him and said, “I am done with you.” and I looked at her and said, “And I am done with you.” The next morning he started yelling at me about my behavior to OW and my response was, “I cannot live like this, you need to choose between your girlfriend or your family.” He moved out to her house the next day. Still makes me mad thinking about it, especially since he is screwing around with out teenage boys minds and emotions.

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago
Reply to  Gonegirl

That’s awful, what a horrible man to treat you like this, to treat anyone like this!

NoLongerMyProblem
NoLongerMyProblem
7 years ago
Reply to  Gonegirl

He’s fucking another woman. She’s fucking a married man. You tell them you’re done with them both and somehow YOU are the one with behavior issues? Right. Reality check, lane one please!

liveandlearn
liveandlearn
7 years ago

When I discovered the other woman and told him to stop pursuing her, he leaned back arrogantly in the desk chair he was in and said “not at the present time”.
That moment the earth fell away from under my feet, I unchumped myself. The world as I knew it forever changed.
Saw a lawyer within two days and filed much to his raging soliloquy.

SomethingNew
SomethingNew
7 years ago
Reply to  liveandlearn

“That moment the earth fell away from under my feet, I unchumped myself. The world as I knew it forever changed.

Exactly. For me it was when I realized he wasn’t lying to me because he was ashamed/embarrassed/other stuff I projected on him, but because HE WANTED TO. He wanted to be doing the things he was doing (I didn’t know the half of it). It was all by choice. Turns out he didn’t have my back, like I always thought he did. I had trusted him without a second thought (hell, without a first one) for 11 years. In that moment, when he was lying to me, smiling the whole time, everything changed. I realized he wasn’t my best friend, he was my worst enemy. And I had had NO CLUE.

Kiwichump
Kiwichump
7 years ago
Reply to  SomethingNew

After a year of gaslighting since DDay I had a VAR and got a conversation between the traitor and the whore while I was in town picking up their son. They were plotting how they were going to turn him against our life here on the farm, how she thought I might gift the farm to the little boy, because they know how much I love him, how the traitor wanted to move on, where he was going to fuck her next and how, AND I also heard him lie to HER about steps he was supposed to be taking to advance the separation, meeting with accountant, bank manager etc which actually hadn’t taken place and never did happen in the end. My secret rebellion is that I will NEVER tell that gold digger whore that he is lying to her while he is telling her how much he wants her and apparently making plans and plotting their future taking advantage of me. Some couple they make. Poor child has them for parents and there is nothing I can do about it.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago
Reply to  liveandlearn

He sounds Ted Bundyish.

BetterDays
BetterDays
7 years ago
Reply to  liveandlearn

“That moment the earth fell away from under my feet…” What a perfect way to describe that moment when you finally see the monster behind the mask.

Untold
Untold
7 years ago
Reply to  BetterDays

+1 – “That moment the earth fell from under my feet” – dreadfully vivid analogy.

Free Vixen
Free Vixen
7 years ago
Reply to  liveandlearn

Ugh, this makes me want to reach out and slap the smug right out of him.

Kimhopes
Kimhopes
7 years ago

I was a chummpy chump initially. What I did was collect evidence post d-day during the 9 weeks he stayed in the house.

What I did was hold onto that evidence until he had the hide to go to lawyers asking for money from me to pay for my share of a loan (I had asked for the password to the loan so I could see I wasn’t paying for anything extra, he never gave it to me & then lawyered up).

I passed all the evidence onto my lawyers, proof that he had spent thousands of dollars on dating sites, proof that he had used Moneygram to send money to overseas scam artists. I am now going for my share of his superannuation – he doesn’t know that yet. I have decided that every time he costs me money, I will go for more of what I am entitled to. I was willing to just walk away. Arrogance & entitlement are their downfall.

Martha
Martha
7 years ago
Reply to  Kimhopes

Mighty!!

Tempest
Tempest
7 years ago
Reply to  Kimhopes

Well-done, Kimhopes!

neverwouldhaveimagined
neverwouldhaveimagined
7 years ago
Reply to  Kimhopes

Ooh, a stealthy chump. Mighty!

allfornothing
allfornothing
7 years ago

Like many of us I had plenty of red flags telling me it was a lost cause but I knew the OM was pure evil and I warned her so the day she left. She knew going into it that her 20yr senior OB/GYN had a history of domestic violence and other vile behaviour. Less than a year after she left he beat her up. And the first person she turned to was me (not her Switzerland family/ friends). She was finally remorsful and seeking reconciliation for three months then suddenly went silent. I finally learnt she had “fallen back in love” with the NPD Dr Stranglove. It was then that I truly realised that her story was sadly like many of the other women on this blog and that the path she was on was nothing my love could save her from. No matter how much you love someone, it’s almost impossible to save them from drowning when they choose to swim far out into the sea of their error.

just around the bend
just around the bend
7 years ago
Reply to  allfornothing

“She knew going into it that her 20yr senior OB/GYN”

One sad fact here is that most likely she thought she wa really cool snagging “an older man” and beating out a “woman older than she” for him.

Well, if youth were really all that, why are these younger women wasting their time with unavailable men. And in this case, a physically abusive one.

Free Vixen
Free Vixen
7 years ago
Reply to  allfornothing

Dear god, I hope you’ve reported him to the medical board if he was her OB/GYN. That is a major breach of ethics.

Also, you’re so right that our love can’t save them from themselves or anyone else. It’s a sad thing. But our love can save ourselves.

neverwouldhaveimagined
neverwouldhaveimagined
7 years ago
Reply to  allfornothing

So true. Allfornothing, your moniker really makes sense. Their actions do not.

StrawberryJellyfish
StrawberryJellyfish
7 years ago

My ex moved out about 12 days after D-Day because living with me while I knew he had a mistress was “too uncomfortable.” I didn’t want him to leave but I just told him “fine, whatever.” He told me before he left that he hadn’t made up his mind and was going to use the time apart to really think about things and decide what he wanted in life. Oh gee, thanks.

But, I was hoping for him to come back and I wanted to reconcile so I believed him.

He came over a few days later to play with our daughter and after she went to bed I tried to share a part of a book I was reading with him about how to rebuild trust after infidelity. He stared past me, not even acknowledging me with more than a grunt. He left as soon as he could.

The next day I called our cell phone provider and asked to check to see if he hadcalled OWs phone number recently. He had called her immediately after leaving our home the night before and talked to her for an hour. He couldn’t talk 2 words to me, but his reaction was not to try to reconcile with me, not to open up communication with me, but instead to run to her to get his ego stroked.

I was done. I hired the lawyer that day and told her to start the process.

The next time he was supposed to come spend time with our daughter he didn’t show up. So I throw all his stuff on the side porch and told him he wasn’t welcome back.

Sylvia is Sad
Sylvia is Sad
7 years ago

But doesn’t it stop you in your tracks: It was uncomfortable for HIM. It truly shows you how hopeless these type of cheaters are. Not worried about YOU, Strawberry.

If we just extend that a little further: Yes, I shot you. But the blood from your gaping chest wound is making me woozy. Could you PLEASE control the bleeding so *I* am comfortable?