Your Most Ridiculous RIC Nuggets
If you were ever an Amazon chump, somewhere there moldering on your bookshelf (or ashen in an incinerator somewhere) are the 50 Save Your Marriage books you bought, probably at 3 a.m. after a few heartsick Google searches. The books have titles like: “When Splendid People Cheat!” or “How Can I Forgive You After You Spent $100K on Sex Workers? A Toolkit!” or “My Husband’s Affair Was the Best Thing That Ever Happened to Me!” (Oh hang on, that’s a real title to a best-seller, not my snark…)
Well now, Chump Nation, you can put that lousy investment to work today, by sharing the most ridiculous Reconciliation Industrial Complex nuggets you purchased, through book sale, therapist’s office, or snake oil affair-proof-your-marriage workshop. Go ahead, name names! Recite chapter and verse! Point and laugh.
Was it nuggets like supporting your partner while they grieve the affair partner? Excusing the affair because they SAID they were SORRY? Not insisting on STD testing because that would be punishing them and could trigger toxic shame?
What piss-poor, victim blaming, emotionally tone-deaf bullshit did you buy on the open market? And how do you feel about that advice now?
I’m all ears. TGIF!
My X told me one night I had to help her get over her affair partner. She was drunk, but am pretty sure she read it somewhere.
Yes! In the (maybe?) two weeks she had ended it (probably not) with her AP, as I was in shock and grief over the whole thing, she informed me that she was in just as much pain as I was and needed time to grieve, since she was suffering such a deep loss. AP? She’d known for six months. Me? Ten years, two children, a life. The selfishness was staggering. Yet I was so terrified I’d “push her away” that I swallowed this poison–for a while. Then I divorced her lying, disordered ass.
Mine was the same way mine is 22 years and it took her maybe 10 minutes to get over me but her affair partner who was the 1 year guy was the “hardest ever”
Boo hoo
The only good thing was that he was fucking around on her as well and left her for someone else
ha ha Ha
Success!
Let me tell you about YoYo Knickers grieving or the lack of it.
– AP died in a plane crash
– I moved back in to the family home temporarily (A few days)
– She was on suicide watch, tranquillisers,
– I looked after the kids, cleaned the house
– I booked her into therapy/counselling
4 days after AP died she announced she was signing up for online dating! When I asked her if it she thought it was a bit soon she said..”I need companionship, If your idea of me grieving is sitting around crying then I’m afraid that’s just not me”
The mind boggles!
O!M!G!
I’m new here.
This thread may be done.
A lot of things have stunned me on this site.
That makes my ex look like Grandpa Walton.
So cold….I’ve got frost bite!
OMG Mickeyblueeyes, you can NOT get shallower than that.
He meant THAT much to her …. as did you.
Well escaped.
The mind boggles. Just crazy wow.
No pick me dance…no kibbles…..no half baked counseling…..no saving a marriage with a deceptive liar and cheater This is the second time around in my 31 year marriage. Out out out you go! And stay out!
Same thing happened with me. After D Day #1, I told him that never again would I tolerate this behavior. It took him 17 years, but he did it again. I kept quiet, got copies of all financial documents, paid a retainer to an attorney, then let him know he was being served. I was full of rage, and it was the best thing for me. I didn’t dance or dispense kibbles either. Went full NC on his porny ass. I fully recommend anger!!
why couldn’t I have been like you, Valerie!!! You rock —
NO WAY!!
I got only a teensy tiny taste of that.
When I was still spackling and telling myself that my cheater was only friends with the AP (a serial cheater), whose husband had just left her because he suspected she was cheating with my STBXH, she would “check in” each night with him to let him know she was safe after visiting home to see her own kid. One night, he didn’t hear from her, and he got very worried. He crawled into bed and (I assume) cried.
This was after ILYBINILWY and we were supposed to spend extra time together each night, so I went to check on him and found him grieving there in the dark bedroom.
“What’s going on?”
“I haven’t heard from her. I’m really worried. She always texts by now. I think she’s hurt. Maybe even worse. I want to go drive by her house to see if her car is there. I’m so scared for her.” By this time, he’d gotten out of the bed and was pacing back and forth in nervousness, near panic.
Seriously.
I was going along with his plan… again, thinking that they were just “friends”. Eventually, she texted him, and he went off to text with her. We never had our quality time that night. And I soon found out he was cheating and that I was a total chump.
It’s one of the memories I think back to and say, “Good riddance.”
Wow, Mickeyblueeyes,
I think you had a brush with a bonafide Psychopath, but you probably know better than anyone. Wow, so sorry.
Wow, what an asshole!
She then announced on social media that she had lost the “Love of her life” when AP died.
Like you David2016 she had 6 months with this guy and 25+ years and 3 kids with me…not sure what I was if he was the love of her life!
She sucks. Really.
mickeyblueeyes,
I thought I had heard every kind of horrible infidelity story and had memorized the narcissist playbook, but your story leaves me absolutely slack jawed. Holy %#$%, the social media announcement.
If I was a terrible person, I might wish all AP’s were on that same plane, and your ex had followed through with her self destruction plans. Oh wait, I am a terrible person.
They really don’t think straight when it comes to the APs and what love really means. The day before STBX decided he was going to move out he was obviously not all there and when I asked him about it he sent me the movie invite Schmoopie had sent him and said tearfully “this was sent to me by someone who cares about me and who I hurt really badly”. I said “I care about you and you hurt me really badly”. Seriously, we were also together for 25 years, 3 kids. I supported him through three careers (4 if you count his time as stay at home Dad) and seven moves including the last one when I found a job half way across the country so he could go live where he wanted. What has she done for him? A few blow jobs. That shows how much she cares. I guess I was just focused on all of the wrong things (not that we weren’t having sex too).
Here is a link for affair love versus real love. These people just don’t get it. (this may count as a RIC site but it is still a good article).
https://affairadvice.wordpress.com/2012/09/22/affair-love-and-the-reality/
How can one be so cruel? Don’t get stuck on WHY? Tore me up for a long time trying to understand “crazy”. When I busted my husband, first it was: she’s an old GF and called and started talking dirty and the next thing I knew, I was at her house. Then she blackmailed me that she would tell you about us cuz she knew you were pregnant and I wouldn’t want to hurt you. I found out when our daughter was 5 months old.
After I tossed his ass out, he showed up. The police came, told me that I could not change the locks and until the divorce was final, they could not keep him out of the family home. As I sobbed on the couch, the psychopath came up and rubbed my back, whispering in my ear, shush, shush, baby, it’s all your fault, and you know this. You never thanked me for taking out the trash, I just never felt appreciated.
Yes, it is true, he actually said that. It was then I knew he was sick and dangerous. the actual definition of a psychopath. Took a while, but I got away.
Oh my goodness . . .
Hard to believe, ain’t it?!
If you’d only said, “Thank you,” when he took out the trash, none of this would have happened.
Patience, they’re unbelievably cruel, X reduced his support claiming disability, s disability that can’t be unproven (seeing spots) evidently he’s done his research. Hard to believe this is the same person who couldn’t make plans for over 25 years.
He had me evicted from our home, leaving me homeless with my two dogs, fortunately I was able to stay temporarily with a friend. X had alienated our son from me and used the eviction as another strike against my character building his arsenal of twisting facts to slander me.
I remember the smirk on his face as he stood watching me in tears, leave our home with only the clothes on my back not knowing what to do.
To outsiders he’s charming, funny and the great guy, he’s a very convincing.
I know the truth, he’s Satan, relentless in his pursuit to destroy me.
Without a doubt he’s a sociopath, pure evil.
I also remember questioning X while he stood there looking at me, laughing and taunting me, knowing how upset I was and bringing me to tears.
Who could do these things to another human being?
Incomprehensible to me…
Your ex husband is a sick piece of s**t, Patience. So glad you got away from him. My ex also told me his affair and abandonment of me was completely my fault, but he didn’t say it in such a sinister way. It’s a wonder you didn’t go nuts yourself, the dissonance of hearing someone say such hateful things about you in a loving way is enough to make your head explode!
Thanks Lyn. He gave it all he had to make me feel “crazy”, he would stand there and smile, refusing to answer questions so my mind would race and then laugh at how crazy I sounded as I was desperately trying to understand what the truth was and what was actually going on.
As I lost the house and was packing up the kids and all our stuff, he stood by his truck, dragging on a cigarette and said, “you know, if you take me back, my dad will help us save the house…”
I said, wow, you don’t know me at all do you? I walked from my house, was in bankruptcy (his refusal to work and I eventually ran out of money to pay the mortgage); and was ready to live at a Comfort Inn extend stay with my 4 kids. All I had was my kids, thank god, and my job. period. I was dead inside for a long long time. I wish I had Chump Lady then. I think I would have healed faster and not been so confused by the games. I describe that time in my life as this: It was like the long skinny finger of the devil, with a long black fingernail, poking in through the top of my head, stirring, and laughing. I did nearly break down. I walked around in a daze for 2 years.
Jesus Christ, Mickey… That’s all I can come up with.
She must live her “life” in six month increments… they really are that shallow.
I’m sorry for your loss of 25 years. Be glad it wasn’t 50.
Omg! My ex and her are sharing a soul and thought process! No AP’s Dying but the same fake deep grief on social media about leaving me with cancer – all while making several dates the day he left me and probably for years before! That is sociopathy. No way your ex didn’t just get off on you stepping up to dance for her! Wow I feel for you!
To top it off we hadn’t gone “public” on our separation (Her request) so her announcement on social media saying she had “lost the love of her life” led people to ask if it was ME that had died!
Someone at my Niece’s school said to her…”I’m sorry to hear about your uncle”
I kept a screenshot of her statement to remind myself of what a fucked up mess I am dealing with and if she ever applies the charm or pity channels she can go fuck herself.
Mickey, love how your ex didn’t want to go public. Isn’t that just great… Yep, it was all about her ‘image management’. Better to just cast out that she had lost the ‘Love of her life.’ Yep, all about focusing on her ability to LOVE and make the truth of who she was refering to ‘fuzzy’.
I think the screenshot idea was a really good one…but sometimes seeing that over again can be really wounding too. My ex and I had separated and she was begging me to come back to her. It was January. Then her ap’s daughter posted to my ex’s fb a photo of their recent Christmas gathering–with my ex front and centre with her ap’s arms around her. All jolly. It was shattering. But I often think of it and it hardens my resolve to be nc. At the same time it wounds–so it’s a mixed blessing.
Mickey, this is macabre. It sounds like a vignette out of a movie, so out there is this. I hope you have a good counselor/therapist. Please stay in this community. There is so much wisdom and empathy. You and your kids deserve a huge hug from the universe of good people.
Mickey……I hope you got rid of the reptile! Cold blooded as it gets!
I’m sorry Mickey.
? Wow! It seems so insane to do that! How did you reply to people checking in on you to see if you were really dead?
I hope your children are ok. Sounds like this woman will infect them with f’d up thinking every chance she gets!
Mickey,
I’m so sorry you were treated this way. It really is beyond anything I ever thought was possible (before my own abuse). I hope you are building a grand new life and someday soon a woman of values and worth comes and rocks your world in a terrific, loving, healthy way. You deserve a lifetime of peace and happiness after what that “thing” did to you.
Huge hugs!
Hi Mickey, You gotta have a sense of humor to survive this crap, but OMG, the social media announcement is unbelievably painful nonetheless. It reminds me of some of the crazy comments made by aging family members who suffer from dementia. I guess that is one way to look at it?
Whenever I read stories like this it absolutely amazes me that people can do this and not hear the words that are coming out of their mouth. Seriously, I know when I say stupid shit. I can’t wrap my head around what they are thinking. Thank God I was blessed with morals and character so I don’t run around making a fool out of myself.
My X only read one book on infidelity, from which he extracted two nuggets with which he tried to mindfuck me in the early days of discovery: (1) I should not make a decision right away, I should wait at least 6 months before deciding to leave his ass; (2) his two-decades long relationship with prostitutes and massage ladies was just one long “exit affair” — even if it started before he met me… He did not see any contradiction between the two of them, or inside those statements. When I pointed the contradictions out, he came back with the story of a friend who is a serial cheater and whose habit is to wait to leave each old husband appliance until she REALLY falls in love with the next one. That’s when I finally realized that logic is not relevant.
I am currently dealing with the emotional fall out of this advice. My therapist and every book I read said, “six months to a year” and added on the layer of since we had kids, it really should be a year before I made a decision. Everything in me was screaming this was a bad idea, but I went with it anyway.
We are about four weeks from the year mark from d-day and I realize it is a cluster f**k now. Especially since the advice is to “work on your marriage” while you wait. So, instead of a clean sweep when it was all on the table, there has been eleven months of wreckoncillition. The problem is, he is still trying to prove he is a ‘unicorn’ and doing a some (not all) of the things that I have requested. However, – I realize that I really don’t want to spend the rest of my life married to someone who was stupid and juvenile enough to get addicted to porn in the first place. Why do I want to be with someone that was putting out dating profile on hook up websites so he could try out some of the freaky shit he was jacking off to? Eleven months later I realize if we stay together – he gets the ‘prize’ of having a faithful wife that stuck with him through his worst, while I get the ‘prize’ of a guy who promises not to go to any more massage parlors for blow jobs or spend his nights doing cam-to-cam jack off sessions with porn whores.
My kids could have been on their way to finding their normal by now. And plus, he gets to push the ‘reformed’ story. I actually believe he hasn’t jacked off to porn since d-day (polygraph test confirmed and no evidence since). So, he gets to push forth the story that he is a ‘new man’ and did everything I asked (even though not everything has been done) and I look like an unforgiving prick. At d-day, he was still lying. I could have nailed his ass big time. I could have kicked his ass out and been good. Now, kicking him out will completely confuse the children, because my husband has realized he actually likes being a dad instead of what he was doing the past five years – jacking off to porn instead of tucking them in at night. He is finally paying attention to them, consistently helping with homework, consistently taking them to activities. They finally got the dad they wanted and kicking him out now makes me the bad guy.
So far, the only thing I have been able to do that gives me any semblance of power was kicking him out of the bedroom and making him move to a spare bedroom. Now, I am just waiting for him to screw up. Nice life, right.
So – PLEASE IGNORE THE SIX MONTHS RULE! Yes, I am yelling, because I am living proof that rule is absolutely damaging to the chump. Yup, my “Prince Charming” is a ‘recovered’ porn addict. Yay me.
Cool Breeze, you are so right on. I didn’t get myself into the whole 6-month rule or RIC bullshit, but I’m sure I would have been on my way (closest I got was reading a book about narcs, that STBX had originally purchased to read regarding his father). However, I imposed a “try and work it out” path on myself and was about 4 months or so in when I finally had it. The prize analogy is perfect – you spend all of this stress and effort on being the rock and they get to reap the benefits while all you get is the stress of “relying” on someone who’s unreliable, no matter what they say or promise. Really, some prize! I could pull my hair out thinking about that old agage of “Fool me once!” Easy to say when you’re not married/attached to the lunkhead, I suppose. I was still smoking that hopium for a little while. I guess the rule should be don’t ignore your gut.
I was told to wait a year to file by mc and first lawyer. After 6 months I was mentally done but kept trying to hold out. I finally interviewed other lawyers who after hearing my story said you neeed to file yesterday no matter who you hire.
The only thing I can say is I have collected a truckload of evidence in the last 10 months.
Today’s jaw dropping moment: my p.i. calls me this morning to let me know he searched the DMV records and found the records for stbx’s new Harley. He put a vanity tag on it “DEADBT”. I kid you not!
He did tell me awhile back he is a habitual truth teller. I guess he is trying.
Oh, and I could go on about the “reformed man” bullshit. Yeah, sure, let’s put the past in the past. Easy for them to say!
*adage (ugh, phone keypads)
I heard the wait 6 months to a year before I make a decision to leave my X.
I’d say wait 6 months as a separated person, post-nup in hand, to see if the cheater has any remorse…clock ticking…
While LAJ has, perhaps, the more compassionate response, my advice would be to divorce their sorry ass immediately. Who cares if they have remorse? They can’t unscrew their affair partner, there is NO way to compensate for the weeks/months/years of deceit and disrespect. Game over.
Oh how I wish I had waited “6 months as a separated person, post-nup in hand, to see if the cheater has any remorse…clock ticking…” the self-esteem I would have as a major BadAss!!
Thanks for reminding me about ‘wait six months’ . Why is the beauty and power of chump anger get so maligned?
During our first day of MC the counselor was talking about marriage happiness levels on a 1-10 scale and saying that marriages in the 6-7 range don’t cheat, those in the 2-3 range do. STBX thought that meant that he was justified in cheating because our marriage was a 2. The counselor wasn’t intending to condone it, just explain that we had some work to do to get the marriage back to a 6-7 and that it would require work from both of us to get it there.
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Yes. The most often repeated and worst piece of advice ever was ‘wait six months’ before deciding anything.
This nugget is everywhere and is dangerous as in the Uk if you want to file on the grounds of adultery you have to do it BEFORE six months since discovery, otherwise you are stuck with irreconcilable differences and it can drag on.
Adultery is a legal breach of promise however and can result in the whole process going faster.
NEVER wait six months. Maybe six hours to six weeks at a push.
Worst ever advice. Leaves you open to all kinds of second guessing by yourself and others. The shock of dday is useful to propel to process forward. This wait advice makes me enraged even now.
In the US and my no fault state of Florida, infidelity is only considered with spousal support etc. everything is 50/50 with that. Sickening to think someone can run up your credit cards, dismiss you and discard you after 20 years and you have to give them half. Yuck!
The other thing is that it sets you up to be a doormat and lose every last shred of respect – self and others.
Capricorn, same in Australia! I have a friend who stayed with her abuser for more than 6months “for the sake of the children”, but when she finally had had enough and left him, she ran into trouble in the legal system as his lawyers tried to prove she was lying about the abuse because “it mustn’t have been that bad if u ou stayed on with him for more than 6months, because if it was really as bad you say it was, then you would’ve gotten out immediately”. They made her look like and idiot. So I’m with CL on this – get out, sort out the finances. This should be the the top priority to protect yours and your children’s future.
And also if you sleep (i.e. Have sex) with them after you have discovered the adultery I think that means you can no longer file on those grounds. So the very real ‘hysterical bonding’ that happens in some shape or form to all of us is not recognised as the reaction to emotional trauma that it is.
You get blindsided, go into shock, maybe suffer the additional trauma and humiliation of hysterical bonding, try to figure out what the hell just happened to your life and the legal system compounds your suffering.
It’s a man’s world out there in so many ways (except for male chumps also who get just as screwed over, especially as the disordered wives often get full custody regardless of what huge fuckwits they are.
Yes, sadly it’s a man’s world out there, I’m appalled at the injustice of our family courts.
Shockingly women judges are harder on women than male judges. I believe there should be mandatory family psychology classes, including narcissistic and sociopathic personality disorders, domestic abuse, parental alienation and socio economic classes with emphasis on uneducated women returning to the work force. Education, Have the judge spend a day working a menial jobs for an obnoxious demanding boss fro minimum wage after devoting your life to a pig. After taking the core classes, yearly refresher courses required. I’d like to see an authority figure monitor their performance and judgements in the court. Someone other than their BF or someone in their circle of friends. Foolishly I thought honesty would prevail.
Classes for judges, wasn’t sure if I was clear on my post. I was typing fast and furious. =)
You can still file adultery if after you sleep with them they cheat again. One thing to be careful about in some grounds states is that prior to your divorce being final, anyone- especially anyone of the opposite sex- that you spend time with can serve as a target for adultery charges against you by their lawyer. If you have a dating relationship during separation it can even nullify your adultery charges. So if you are using fault grounds for your divorce (like I did and with great success for a strong settlement) be super careful.
PS – she’s still having trouble with this asshole
At least you can file claiming adultery in the U.K. In Sydney, NSW and in CA USA, the two places I’ve lived, are no-fault states. Spouse cheats and steals half the family money? We don’t care. You just get half of whatever’s left. Next!
Mine also BEGGED for “six months” to which I replied “that’s exactly what the separation period is for”. And the clock began ticking.
In the end it took almost a year for the divorce to be final, but if I had waited another 6 months before separating, it would have been 6 months longer!
Mine also thought I should go with him to his “therapist” to help him “unpack” why he cheated on me (with multiple men) due to childhood abuse. And yes, “unpack” used this way kinda makes me chuckle now.
I actually went one time, and it turned into a giant heap of him playing victim and me being put in some kind of obscure care-giving role to try to help him “heal”. It took all of one session to put an end to that and tell him I had endured enough abuse from him and needed to focus on my own healing now.
That was the moment I started gaining a life.
Well-done, Unknown Comic–very mighty!
I was also given the “wait 6 months” piece of advice, and it was against every instincts I had, so I ignored it and moved out within 3 weeks of DDay #1.
I also read lots of blog posts about cheating/wayward spouses and betrayed spouses and what each “should be doing” to make the divorce the least painful possible for kids involved. I read things like “Graceful Divorce Solutions”, “the Co-Parent Handbook” and saw all the ways mature people can make the divorce less painful for everyone… I sent my X articles and suggestions about what he could do to make it easier on our kiddo and easier for us to deal with one another moving forward…
How many times did he thank me for my efforts? How many times did he adopt a mature approach to divorcing after his affair?? Zero… He totally felt entitled to wreckoncilliation and when I did not dance to his fake charm channel tune, he rapidly devolved into channel flipping, his sad sausage and rage episodes were spectacular pieces of mindfuckery.
Trying to make sense out of his irrational behavior, I found
“Get out of control: how to leave a control freak and regain your power” by Honesty and Friends
“Joint custody with a jerk”
“Raising the kid you love with the ex you hate”
And that was more like what I was going through. I later found CL’s website, I knew I had found my tribe, CL’s book reflected my own experience to a T, all the books I read in the resources section were spot on too, and CN’s stories have been a source of solace, laughter and shadenfreude/karma hope ever since.
We never married but when I saw those photos , his ass was out the door with his belongings within two hours. Thought I might go mental if I hadn’t thrown him out out and no way I was leaving my kids or house I had worked my ass off to buy.
When I tossed his ass out, it was not out of being a strong woman, it was more about, I would have gone “mental.” It was about survival. Before I found CL I questioned my decision. Joining CL and CN, never questioned it again!
I questioned myself,…..did I act too quickly, in a harsh way, blah, blah, blah??? You all know the drill. By coming here it validates that what I did that day was right for ME!
OMG, Lady b, my story exactly but without children!
Yeah the six months and “Adultery” turns to “Irreconcilable Differences” is an odd one. i made sure YoYo Knickers was served before the 6 months. She actually did the most decent thing she’s ever done in the divorce process and actually wrote the words “Adultery” and signed it on her part of the divorce papers.
The six month expiration for divorce on ground of adultery is an excellent reminder that family law varies significantly from country to country and from state to state.
Most U.S. states are no-fault, which means that the state doesn’t care why you’re getting a divorce, only that you are getting one. Some few states still have “fault” divorces, so adultery may leverage a settlement.
Another variant is the time you have to wait between filing and divorce. In my no-fault state, it takes only 60 days from filing to divorce, assuming that the settlement goes through or that you’ve so few assets that you trust a judge to divide things up in an equitable fashion during your court date. However, in some states, there’s a mandatory waiting period of up to two years.
If you can file for cause, then you can shorten your mandatory waiting period.
The differences in divorce laws are exactly why you need to see a lawyer in the beginning, even if lawyers aren’t typically involved in divorce cases.
Agree. All sorts of well-meaning friends and acquaintances — none of whom ever went through what I did — tried to convince me to wait a while, as well. I’m sure it happens to a lot of people, it’s some kind of unexamined received wisdom that gets passed like a virus, and it only keeps them in a traumatizing and disempowered situation for longer.
Ya don’t wait. Me waiting(a chumpy 4 years) led to the loss of half of my life savings plus tens of thousands in debt to my company his company never paid plus aboutv$60000 in large assets he removed plus he stopped earning a living so no spousal support. I could have hired a top male prostitute to please me regularly for the rest of my life on the monetary losses alone and saved years of other abuse as well. POS
Who benefits from this advice? Cheaters — who have time to go underground and hide/steal assets. And the RIC who can peddle hopium and marriage saving.
I preach protect yourself. Anyone who is truly “sorry” should understand consequences. After you’re safe financially and emotionally — sure, then gage your unicorn chances. 99.9% never get there — cheaters hate consequences and the “sorry” is impression management to avoid consequences.
As far as protecting yourself goes, I would make that filing for divorce IMMEDIATELY. Expect whining and pleading – ignore this. Expect RIC therapists to tell you you cannot work to “repair a marriage” while doing this – IGNORE THEM (your partner swapped bodily fluids with others and took shared assets without your knowledge – repairing a marriage is not the core issue).
If D day happens at noon, try to file the paperwork by 5. It does something to create some safety and transparency where you can no longer do anything more than pay typical expenses until the matter is resolved in the courts. Also, do this INSTEAD of initially negotiating a settlement (you can still negotiate one after it is done, and you can still take a few more rounds with this person to expose yourself to more potential physical, emotional, and psychological harm as long as you’ve done all you can to cover your bases money-wise first). Just file to start the clock on getting in front of a judge in your state. You can then also see if your partner agrees to a reasonable settlement, but do not give up that court date as you will then have to wait all over again for it. Your cheating partner’s brain is a pandora’s box – you cannot know what will come out of there and it won’t likely be good for you. The best way you can protect yourself is to file first, negotiate the settle meant later.
Do not listen to the RIC which will tell you to wait.
Do not listen to the RIC which will tell you to wait.
Do not listen to the RIC which will tell you to wait.
You will not believe that your loved one will do the things to you financially that he or she will likely do. You might think…now that he/she is caught, now all the “shame” is out in the open (RIC speak), or surely now they will return to their core feelings of love and be fair.
This person was willing to make a fool of you and robbed you of the most precious things already: time and health (how healthy did YOU feel after D day???). Stole assets. Exposed you to disease and trauma you will never be unaffected by (even after you heal). Exposed your children to harmful psychological and emotional experiences the affects of which will remain for a lifetime.
DO NOT TRUST THIS PERSON – DO NOT GIVE THIS PERSON ANY TIME BEFORE PROTECTING YOURSELF FINANCIALLY.
Don’t listen to the RIC or your trusting and trustworthy, hopeful and hurting, brain on this. Listen to Chumplady and Chump Nation. RUN, don’t walk, to file your divorce papers.
And that person broke your heart. Just broke it into a million pieces.
Absolutely. I “gave” her eight months. What that meant is she was free to enjoy the perks of singlehood frolicking with her AP using our family’s funds, while her husband crept closer and closer to a total emotional breakdown and our two young children watched their family disintegrate.
+1, David 2016, I had some good support that decreased mine to 6 months, I should have gave her 8 seconds like my gut told me 6 months before she admitted to the affair. That would have given me back a year of my life.
If there’s a next time, that chickie won’t get 8 seconds, she’ll get however long it takes to say, “Get OUT,” hopefully I won’t waste that much time, and it’ll just be “Out.”
I feel like they get off on watching you slowly wither away. Power trip. It’s like they able to step outside their ‘acting like your partner’, and also get off on how much you care and bought their ‘act.’ It makes them thrilled to see their acting job – brought someone down to an emotional wreak. Their pleased with themselves.
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Without a doubt..,
They are pleased with themselves and have no mercy. I recorded a conversation between Traitor and Whore just before our family Christmas at his folks. I had asked him specifically if we were going and if I was meant to go too (this was looong after DDay 2 and months of wreckonciliation, etc.) in front of his adult children. He said yes, so I booked all 7 of us, including adult eldest son and his girlfriend into a motel and paid early to get a good rate. A week before going I recorded him telling the whore I wasn’t coming to the family Christmas. “She doesn’t know it yet, but she’s not coming.” “Good” says the whore. This phone call happened while I was out with their son, I’d taken him to a horse riding lesson. She also asked why we were out. “I don’t know WTF she’s doing, I don’t care”, he said. With THEIR son!
Chumped ^this…..
I think Haggar the Whoreable did get off on seeing me twist myself into a pretzel trying to fix all the things that he claimed were wrong with me just to assault me with more things that he was holding grudges against me for….”He was just so torn and unhappy and needed to come home happy”. But of course there was no one else…..Yeah right turdlips, your clothes don’t lie like you do. From Dday, crickets.
Luckily, I came across your website within days. So your book was the first. Followed by Paul McKenna ‘i an mend your broken heart’. So thankyou for everything. No contact 6 weeks tomorrow and feeling stronger every day. I still have my moments of sadness and despair, but they are dampening over time xx
I did find chumplady early on, but was so blinded by my own will to “save the marriage” that I ignored it, and thought, that’s only for people who aren’t successful at reconciliation!! Uggggh the stupidity. I devoured books on how to save my marriage. I tried so hard to follow all the advice – give him space, give him time, don’t bring it up all the time, don’t make him feel any uncomfortable feelings around you, you don’t get someone to fall back in love with you by harping on the things they have done wrong… focus on yourself, make yourself more attractive and when he’s really afraid of losing you he will recommit. What a huge, steaming, putrid load of shit. WHY THE FUCK IS IT ON ME TO TOE THE LINE AND BE THE PERFECT, ATTRACTIVE PARTNER, WHEN HE JUST FUCKING PUSHED ME ONTO AN EMOTIONAL FREEWAY?? Seriously, like asking a person who has been hit by a fucking 18 wheeler to look cute and smile. I took it so personally that I was unable to do it. If only I understood male psyche better! If only I was better at being a woman! If only I wasn’t such an ice queen, this never would have happened! If only my parents hadn’t had such a fucked up relationship, maybe I would have been whole and wouldn’t have lost him! Maybe if I had vacuumed more!
I came back to Chumplady after my moment of clarity when I realized what a disgusting human he really was. It was life saving, or at least sanity saving. OMFG, it wasn’t my fault. These cheaters are all the fucking same. There is always something wrong that allows them to do it, always an excuse, whether it’s the lackluster vacuuming or something else. Chumplady and everyone here taught me that I’m not a failure because I couldn’t save it, I am strong and mighty for walking away 🙂
>WHY THE FUCK IS IT ON ME TO TOE THE LINE AND BE THE PERFECT, ATTRACTIVE >PARTNER, WHEN HE JUST FUCKING PUSHED ME ONTO AN EMOTIONAL >FREEWAY??
Yes, THIS! Sing it girl! It’s been almost a year since dday for me, and this brings it all home so perfectly. You are strong, you are mighty, and you can roar!
Yes! You are strong and mighty!
They are weak, empty and cowardly. The biggest cowards. We are not cowards as evidenced by our fight to hold on, and then by our fight when we see the truth and fight for ourselves. All they have is game playing and deception to rely on. They are subhuman. To survive that – you are mighty!!
I swear finding Chump Lady early on (within hours for me) is the best any chump can hope for. It doesn’t stop the sadness or the anger or the process you have to go through but it does take the mindfuck off the table. Best of luck @Yellowsunshine and way to embrace No Contact, the path to the truth and the light! Things will pop into your mind over time, realizations, questions and just plainWTF. Keep coming back here to work it out. I swear reading the posts from today will make you so angry you will want to hurt people. Few things make me madder than the BS of the RIC and what they have done to the kind , trusting, wonderful souls of Chump Nation.
All out of Kibble – AGREED! I also happened upon CL on the first night of internet searching for “cheating husband”. I kept getting all the RIC sites and I was just furious!! None of that sh*t resonated with me. In a raging fury I then searched for either “cheating bastard” or “cheating asshole” (I can’t remember which one it was), and through a series or clicks landed on CL blog. I am forever grateful I found her on the first night. It’s the very best start any of us chumps can hope for. The much needed headstart into dealing with all the crap that goes hand-in-hand with infidelity and the breakdown of a family due to one idiot’s actions. Tracy is the Fairy Chumpmother ✨
I’ve worked out my situation now (I got custody, he got a lonely life overseas with no family support) but I still visit this blog almost daily for inspiration and my daily fix of CL snark ?
Oh yes I agree- the sadness and anger can be overwhelming, but stepping back from the mindfuck, I believe everything else follows suit. Alloutofkibble, thankyou for replying to my comment. I keep coming back because I find you all so inspirational. It’s so nice to know you are not alone, and that you are not a fool for believing in committed love xxx
Yellowsunshine–you’re still in the thick of things. The first 4 months are the worst; 10 minutes of self care every day (even a cup of tea outside). Some days you’ll be able to put one foot in front of the other; some days staying upright is the best that can be expected. Eventually you will see those rays of sunshine. Hugs.
You’re right about the 4 months out. That’s where I am post-divorce. God, there were days I didn’t know how I was going to get past the pain & rejection! Some days are still hard, but not like they were. Life is getting better & better. With a trip to the Dominican Republic on the books for the end of May & an all-girls’ trip to the Cancun booked for September, I am finally getting to travel like I’ve always wanted to…I don’t have anybody around to tell me I can’t 🙂
I don’t know how long ‘the worst’ period was. But for me it was a lot longer than four months. I think having a real live unicorn (hmmm, bear with me here …) made/makes recovery a bit more difficult. To leave one of those makes you (after all, you are a chump) feel terribly callous.
I lost 15kg in the first 5 weeks. 18 in 2 months. I really only had 6 or 7 to spare. The grief was (still is) almost intolerable. Every arsehole who suggested there might be AP grief, I mentally punched in the throat. I was horrified I stayed, having NEVER thought I would stay with a cheater. Can remember that initial thought, “WTF? You’re contemplating STAYING with this arsehole? Hmmm.”
Here it is no fault and a two year separation period to divorce. We never married, so that doesn’t apply, but owning a business which is also our home (read difficulties in selling and splitting assets) makes getting any capital out to start over an extra challenge. And I thought not marrying (him, or anyone) was a super idea when I was 20, 30, 40. If you decided you no longer wanted to be together, tah-dah! Walk away amicably. And I thought we were so evolved! Snort!
Agreed – first 4 months are the worst. I had no appetite and actually FORGOT to eat most days: No hunger pangs at all. Lost about 7kgs in that time. Constant splitting headaches and waking at 3am nightly to my brain working overtime and rehashing events of the day. But trust us when we say – THIS TOO SHALL PASS. I didn’t think it would. When you’re in the thick of it, you just cannot imagine how you will go on. But you can. And you will. All you need is time, and some really kickass people in your corner supporting you. Hang in there. And keep up the cups of tea! (((Hugs)))
I would pace … talking out loud to myself, thinking, rehashing … crying, trying to figure it all out, scared. He hadn’t left me when I was down … he left when I had started to make a concerted effort to revive our relationship. He left me when he knew I was caring about him, and showing him I loved him. That really hurt.
I did this for almost a year. One day I paced for 12 hours, in my own house, just thinking and crying, 12 hours … I’m self-employed … I work from home … that was a lot of money I didn’t make that day, and all the other days … I hadn’t eaten all day … I lost 12 pounds over a few months. Three years later, none of that helped me because I am now scrambling to make money for a lawyer, and for a few therapist appointments for her to remind me he’s NPD. (They’re both really good about paying when I can, and the lawyer waived the retainer.) I held out that he was in a fog and would come back to me.
So if anyone’s doing that now, try to limit it … set a timer and when the bell goes off, get back to getting your ducks in a row. All that pacing didn’t bring him back (however, I’m glad I lost that weight!)
Oh, and I spent $50 on an online how to save your marriage book … ex said, “Well, at least I’m worth THAT much.” He was right … he is worth about that much.
I wish I could say I got a lot of advice to dance harder. It wasn’t for lack of trying on my part. I read and posted at the talk about marriage forums after dday 1 and got advice there to “kick the bitch out”. Wish I was ready to hear and act on that advice at the time. Then I participated in a free group Counceling phone call from another RIC (can’t remember now) but got basically the same message there. Maybe it’s because there were folks there that weren’t really pushing the RIC agenda. Always still wished I’d found chump lady sooner though.
Me too. I didn’t find CL until 4 months after the first Dday. By then I was completely down the rabbit hole of RIC theories. Maybe that’s why it took me another 8 months to file? I wish I’d known the minute I found out what I was really dealing with and kicked his sorry ass to the curb and lawyered up. There was nothing to work with. Nothing. The abuse that occurred in the false wreconciliation nearly destroyed me. X started physically abusing me during that period, physically abused our kids, mentally pushed me almost to the point of self destruction, my kids became suicidal, got arrested. . . it was a COMPLETE disaster of epic proportions. If I’d kicked him out, gone NC, and lawyered up and found a counselor for me and the kids from Dday 1 we would have been spared almost all of that mindfuckery and abuse.
Ha. No titles saved in memory or in receipts…
I did spend hours upon hours at willing bookstores, though, just finding time with company and away from my empty “home”.
Days and evenings sitting in bookstore windows with a super mega ultimate grande chamomile tea (lol) became my savior for several weeks directly following discovery day for me.
Ugh.. Horrid times.
Thank you, random bookstores!!! Saved my life. Also, thanks CL for reminding me of that time of life. It’s almost 3yrs later for me now and MY GOD the difference of life.. I would never have said that I could feel ok again. I feel HAPPY and ALIVE. Not just “ok”.
Thanks all of CN and especially CL. I’m all good again, mostly b’c of you all!
Sending my best wishes to the unfortunate new members here. My best love and strength to you. You WILL get thru this.
I’ll echo UnderConstruction and provide a beacon of hope: Its been 28 months since Dday1, 2 years since I kicked X to the curb, 16 months since I filed, 3 weeks since our divorce was finalized. I’m light years happier than I have been in decades. I feel a new freedom that is hard to describe. I have a lightness of spirit. The moments of sadness are just that – moments. I spend far more time thinking about how great my life is today and how excited I am for the future than I do about X, the golddigging whore, and what happened.
Life is definitely good and worth living.
Hang in there if you are in the dark days. They will pass.
Hugs!
“Thanks all of CN and especially CL. I’m all good again, mostly b’c of you all!” – This.
In my darkest moments I remember telling myself “I can’t go on with this shit” and had almost considered giving up (In every sense). I thought it was me, there must be something wrong with me, have I got mental issues…
Then I googled empathy and cheating one day and found my answers when I was directed to Tracy’s site, literally a life saver.
Same here. I thought there was something wrong with me. Was told constantly that I had self-esteem issues because I was uncomfortable with him having female “friends.” Read dozens of books to fix my issues. Turns out, my gut was right. Found Tracy’s article on Huffington Post, came here and read all the stories. Suddenly everything made sense. Learned all about NPD and the rest is history. That was 3 yrs ago and my life is amazing now.
Tried being the “cool” wife, lost myself in the process of being the understanding cool wife.
My feelings didn’t matter, it was all about X and his happiness.
Yep I felt the same way. I tried to be “evolved” and cool, all accepting and not threatened by the females in his orbit. I was very, very disconnected from my truth and my feelings. Hence I did not honor them until it was too late
Ditto! CL saved my life (very literally). Thank you.
I also was convinced that I had mental issues beyond my x’s crap. Turns out, I am simply a fine and good human. Nothing more or less.
I wondered about myself and there have been times I’ve thought I can’t do this anymore.
From all the unbelievable lies and false accusations, not knowing who or what to believe.
Trying to do the “right” thing and being taking advantage of.
Feeling guilty and not knowing why, blaming myself for things that were clearly not my fault. Thank you CN for opening my eyes to the truth.
X told me so many times I had mental issues I began to believe him.
Once I suggested we go to marriage counseling he said sure, he knew what the counselor would say that I was crazy and ask X why he hasn’t divorced me.
X claimed to be concerned about my mental health and for me not to be surprised if the counselors suggested I get serious help and possibly be put away.
I actually wondered if what he said was true. Scary, I trusted that monster and he knew what he was doing to me.
Thank you CN for saving my sanity.
My stbx cheater keeps pulling the you are mentally ill card too. It is hard not to question myself but then I think what kind of normal person abandons his children to the complete care of someone who is mentally ill? Freak!
They’re psycho, X would say, in a calm tone of voice, “I’m seriously concerned about your mental well being..,” then look at me, without blinking, for what seemed like minutes.
I thought the same thing, who would leave their children with someone with mental issues? or what kind of person would leave their wife if she was mentally ill? then slander her name to everyone?
They’re delusional and need to be more concerned about their own mental health issues.
I had the unfortunate experience of going to “counseling” led by the Episcopalian priest who married us. I suspect that he himself was wayward because his advice to my exH was that he should stay in touch with one of his affair partners (HS girlfriend who lived across the country and was planning to visit) because he “needed closure.” I then had full blown anxiety attack, my first – hyperventilating, the works – because I realized I was dead in the water and I was so mindfucked by that point I wondered if maybe he was right. Ugh what a waste. I really thought I should try to save it, but by the end I had overdosed on Zanex and vodka and ended up being Baker acted because I wasn’t sure I wouldn’t either kill my self or the other affair partner (a Supreme Court judge who had pushed him into law and with whom he had been carrying on, I suspect, even before our engagement and marriage). So so glad all of that is in my rear view mirror!
and frankly, most of us could have been Baker acted after D-day. I’d estimate that 1/2 of my calories came from gin, just to reduce my anxiety enough to function.
Love your honesty and your humour, Tempest!
I’m so sorry that you were driven to the brink of insanity, Cliffs. That is horrifying.
Thank you for that, Tempest. I know all of you guys totally understand the “howling horrors” that come after D-Day. Grateful, too, for this safe space to read and discuss and heal. Xoxo
I’m so, so sorry for that awful counseling from your pastor. My Catholic priest was so frustrated with me when I went in to ask forgiveness for finally going through with divorce. When I told him what all I had been putting up with for years, he said, “You?!! What about him?!!! I think in this case God would understand!” I never received reconciliation. I guess he felt I had nothing for which to be forgiven. I’m sorry you didn’t have a supporting pastor.
Love your priest! Amen!
I didn’t buy any RIC material. Cheating was a deal breaker for me and something inside just told me that I deserve better than someone who will lie and cheat to me. I left her, had a new apartment ready and furnished within 4 weeks, divorce papers severed a month later, served the same day her AP was killed in a plane crash. OUCH!
I did relapse into full chump mode for about a year after that though, not doing the pick me dance but more playing along to her ‘we need to be friends for the kids’ etc…then one day that something inside me told me “WTF are you doing?” Which funny enough coincided with buying Tracy’s book, so I lawyered up, cracking on with the divorce process, going grey rock and met a wonderful fellow chump lady.
Could someone tell me what “grey rock” is?
http://www.lovefraud.com/2012/02/10/the-gray-rock-method-of-dealing-with-psychopaths/
That’s a hell of a story! Good for you.
Fire proof your marriage – what a joke – basically pick me dancing constantly – so they won’t cheat – very one sided- if you’re reading that it’s already too late !
Yea – this. Cheatproof your marriage… is just another way to pass the blame back on the chump. Fuck that.
After DD1 I started getting references to the CL site from Reddit. It wasn’t too much later that I perished this site and then the forums.
The only book I bought was Tracy’s and it has been a great hel and resource.
However the cheater…seems they all buy the same book. Strange isn’t it?
Awww. You guys are really making me feel like CN is making a difference out there. Yea!!!
Because when I went through this shit a decade ago? The RIC was all there was.
Yes!!!! Your site changed everything… I didn’t know anything about the “pick me dance” or “cake eating” but I was doing the dance and my X was eating cake and enjoying the attention from me and AP. No more…. knowledge is power.
OMG, Tracy!
I am beyond grateful for your shepherding. I would not be as confident and happy as I am today (6 years past DD) without your wisdom and generosity.
THANK YOU for permission to not be bullied into “forgiveness.” THANK YOU for orienting me to the fact that, contrary to what the RIC says, he was actually always an asshole, not just “wayward.” THANK YOU for giving me permission to cement NC and, a couple of time a year via e-mail only, Gray Rock. THANK YOU for the laughs, especially for the cartoons. Ex IS the turd in the punch bowl, and his purty li’l disordered OWife is a turd with sparkles on top. THANK YOU for assembling a legion of moral supporters and 2×4-wielding chump champs! THANK YOU for hosting a daily column with comments and forums. THANK YOU for being a role model!
You’re one of my most favorite people ever, a great influence in my life, and I will forever be grateful from the bottom of my heart and soul.
I guess you really have no idea.
You have no idea what a lifeline you have provided to all of us. I think it’s like finding a good shrink or yoga instructor. Once you find someone you “click” with, it so much easier to put the work in.
We are a tribe — smart, sarcastic, ethical — all betrayed and abused. Hearing one another’s stories, and how DAMN SIMILAR they are makes me sad but also gives me strength. It’s somewhat freeing to see the truth and accept you’ve been Chumped. Not because you’re naive or stupid or ignorant — because you’re loving and trusting and moral and ethical and you believe you spouse is as well.
In response to the question of the day, I gasp as I realize I ate a poisoned shit sandwhich early in my marriage, which blinded me for years, no decades, afterwards.
We took a short vacation when I was particularly stressed at work. He came back to our room upset and shaken. We had been hanging with another couple and he told me he had tried to kiss the woman. He was crying — said he’d had too much to drink and was horrified with himself. I bought it — hook, line and stinker — even consoled him. I told myself this man would never cheat on me. And throughout the years, whenever something felt a bit off, I’d remind myself of the incident and shake off any suspiciousness.
Now, 20 years in the rear view mirror I realize he was trying to start an affair. The couple lived in our town as it turns out. She shut him down and he was being proactive in the event she said something to me.
I now know it was gaslighting. He subtlety used preemptive tactics numerous times — all clear in hindsight.
My daughters therapist mentioned that we all
try to make sense out of things and when information is lacking, we come to our own conclusions. In my case, I thought he never dealt with his mothers death and made excuses for his behavior — cocaine at the time — and an affair I found out about 10 years later. Of course when I found out, I thought it was the only one. Five years later, I discover that it’s been one after another.
I was his gravy train for the first half of our marriage and his wife appliance for
the second half. Good grief. I married him because I thought he was gentle and kind and rock solid. It was the long con.
So here I am in my mid-50’s — my career is long gone, he’s traumatized my daughter, my Mom’s in hospice and my brother is relying on me for support.
And, of course, he’s driven by the almighty $$, so he’s fighting me on spousal support. (We live in CA.). I’m being told that 40% is best case — it doesn’t matter that I made 2x his salary until I stopped working to care for
our daughter. It doesn’t matter that giving up my career allowed his to flourish. My expenses will be greater than his because of health care and housing, yet 40% is supposed to be equitable. Every time I meet with my lawyer I feel victimized all over again.
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Giddy, I feel the same each time I talk with my attorney. It’s never ending victimization.
It does’t seem to make any difference what happened or happens, I lose.
This. Took years for me to even think to do an internet search! Did get suckered into a book or three. None made any sense to me, except maybe a couple aimed at cheaters, called things like, “You Fucked Up, You Fucker. Don’t Think You Can Fix This Shit. Broke That Plate? Try Fixing That Without Any Cracks.” Wasn’t buying into ANY shit that blamed me. Hey, rape survivor here! I am ninja level at swiping that narrative to touch.
This website and awesome group of people have been so helpful to me.
Thank you, CL and CAN!
After DD I felt very alone and isolated, as if no one could understand the pain I was feeling or the experience of betrayal. After I found Chump Lady I became part of a nation and found myself in the best of company.
THANK YOU!!!!!!!
Yes, thank you! Your avitar was already familiar to me, from the marriage-building RIC forum, when your article on serial cheaters popped up on a google search. You were spot-on in that article, and it helped me tremendously.
Took me a while to act, but you were one of the five people I’m grateful for, who laid the groundwork for that to happen.
BTW: On that RIC forum, I used to worry you’d get yourself banned, as you were so often arguing against their message.
“You guys are really making me feel like CN is making a difference out there.”
That is the most understated understatement ever!
You’re like the AAA of Infidelity Recovery; the Chump defibrillator. When you just can’t get started getting away from/recovering from a Cheater-filled existence, Chump Lady and Chump Nation will charge your battery and shock your heart. It will provide just what you need to get moving and keep moving as far away as possible.
Saving lives and getting and keeping people on their feet hourly, daily, yearly. Making a difference? That would be a resounding Hell to the Yeah.
Seriously! HUGE, silent H – UGE difference. Haha.
I’m a few years and 2,000 miles away from the cheater, yet I really feel a month or so of reading this site since I found it, has given me an even higher level of understanding of what happened, and even more polished level of “meh.” Amazing community!
I am still in the thick of things so I really struggle with NC still. Whenever I feel like lashing out and contacting HoTard I come read articles and comments here. Thanks for helping me leave that shit show and move forward with my new future!
CN IS making a huge difference.
We all are confronted with this United front of people telling us it’s our fault they cheated and something is wrong with us.
It takes a pretty big opposing message to combat that shit, and CN has it!
Thanks again from the bottom of my heart!
This is the first post I ever read from C/L.
I was so ahead of the ‘game’ after reading this, that I swear his head is still spinning, 4 yrs later.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tracy-schorn/seven-ways-to-leave-a-che_b_2200760.html
+1. This site absolutely saved my sanity in the early days and keeps me sane now.
Ditto.
Yep. CL and CN saved me from drowning as well.
Last week I gave Lose a Cheater to a co-worker, who read it in one night and passed it on to a second co-worker the following day. Wishing there were fewer people who needed it, but grateful that I have it to share. I tell people that only TWO books got me through my divorce: my Bible and Leave a Cheater, Gain a Life! 🙂
However, there were a TROVE of RIC books that I left behind when I moved out. Along with my wedding photo albums. HE can figure out what to do with that $hit. lol
There are so many sites I went to before finding C/L in the nick of time and very early on.
It was definitely a blessing.
However, is it possibly some of our duty to go back on those sites occasionally and try to update the mindset on the RIC? Now, I think that would be a great way to get the message across. So many helpless chumps that waste their time in the throes of grief, and it’s the RIC sites they find.
“You guys are really making me feel like CN is making a difference out there.”
I’m just one person (of legions), but I can attest to the fact that this site with its cut-to-the-chase wisdom and caring participants have — literally — kept me and my kids safe while trying to get away from one of the disordered wingnuts.
How do you thank someone for giving you the tools you need to protect yourself and your kids? … Please know my gratitude is as genuine as it is deep. I will never forget the gift you’ve all given to me and my girls.
I second this. CL and Tempest and everyone who posts have saved me from such misery. No way to thank someone enough for giving us and our kids a chance at so much true, authentic happiness after such a devastating blow.
❤❤❤
I couldn’t agree more! I couldn’t do this without CL and CN. I wouldn’t want to! I spend all my free time on this site. Helps me more than anything else. Thank you thank you thank you Tracy and CN!
When I first separated, I didn’t know about CL and for two years really floundered. Then, had the sudden realization that I never wanted to talk to my then husband any more. Every time we spoke he would brag about his affairs and I would cry for hours after. So, I went NC and knew it was the right thing. But, at the same time, I was told by a couple of friends that I should “forgive” him for all he had done. So, I was a guilty person, doing NC. Then I discovered CL and felt supported in the decision I made. The guilt went away. It was still another couple of years before I reached “meh”, but I think I might have faltered without the support of CN. Whenever I think about some of the awful things that he said to me, I repeat over and over, this is his character. It has nothing to do with who I am. And for this, I am thankful.
I would hate to think where I would be if not for CL. It’s been 3 years and I still remember finding this site, started reading and felt like a light bulb came on! It all made sense, not like the RIC nonsense I was being fed out there. I could not have gotten to where I am right now if not for CL and CN. I will always be grateful for all the support to get through this. Yeah, tears are welling up right now just thinking how lucky I was to find all of you.
(((Hugs))) Thanks. That’s why I keep this place going. 🙂 Couldn’t do it without CN. I run the bar, but it’s the company here that keeps people coming back.
My story isn’t nearly as horrible as many on here. My cheater was a long term boyfriend, standard issue narc, not where near Glad its Over level crazy. I’ve honestly been over him for many years now, but I stick around because I feel like the advice here is really great life advice in general. Is this relationship acceptable to you? Get angry, and don’t eat that shit sandwich. These are all really good usable pieces of advice in *all* relationships.
And, lets face it, I am a chump born and raised. This doesn’t confine itself to me allowing myself to be treated like shit in my romantic relationship. I let friends and coworkers do it as well. Heck, I actually *expect* to be treated like this. Daily reminders that this is NOT ok, really help me stay un-chumped. Tracy, I know your brand is based on infidelity advice, but I wish you would think about making your next book about un-chumping your life. Perhaps targeted at women who grew up in homes with infidelity, watching their parent get chumped and learning that this is what relationships are like, as I did. It has helped me immensely, and I think it deserves to be spread more widely.
Thanks for everything you do.
Tracy,
In the early days of my satan induced insanity, if it weren’t for you…I’m not sure if I would even be here. I was without hope.
…together 36 years…x begins meowing at me and physically abusing me…only to return to ‘normal’ when others would come around…resuming the mind bending behaviors when the door would close behind them…
Awful, just awful, the things he did, the way he behaved!
…you posted one of x’s abusive texts and you and CN took it apart…you all held the rope and helped me climb out of the abyss of darkness I had been cowering in for months…
My gratitude knows no bounds. Living my life free of x abuse, anxiety free!
Eternal thanks to you and all of CN 🙂
Ditto. Ditto. Ditto.
The wisdom, compassion, advice, humor, and intelligence of the people here are the silver lining in the black cloud of betrayal.
Thank you very much, Tracy.
I second, third, fourth, a billion thank you’s for this site! Wish I would’ve found it sooner. Once I did, I finally realized and believed it really was never me!!! Yippee! I’m keeping my therapist in business, but damn! This is the absolute friggin best healing site known to all chumps!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
Tracy, your site save my life, literally.
And I appreciate a little more each day what you have offered all of us here. I believe the trust you have placed in chumps is key. You allow us so much freedom on this site, so we can vent, be potty-mouthed, and honest with each other. You have created a special space where we can truly support each other and I believe that collectively we are bringing out the best in each other.
Thank you!
Cue witty cheater handbook names…
“It’s just my mom I’ve been texting for hours,” and 101 other excuses for cheaters with smart phone.
A Narcissist’s Guide To Cake
I don’t have any RIC self help books. No need, I was dumped like toxic waste. I do however have a ton of the “Men are from Mars” type stuff that I bought over 20 years or so in a desperate attempt to understand his behaviour and be a better wife.
No need for those now either. ?
Oh, yeah, and those Terry Real books about men and depression… As though I should “just understand” why he won’t communicate openly, simply because of his gender. Puh-leeze.
Shocked to learn that Terence Real has collaborated with Esther Perel/Peril and no longer have any respect for him.
My thoughts exactly – the books that stand out for me are the pre-D-day ones when I thought there was something to repair.
Not getting along? No problem, just figure out each others’ “Love Languages” and everything will be magically OK, OK? That’ll be $130, please, Ms. Amiisfree…
Amiisfree, the sad thing is that some of those Marriage Improvement books really ARE good and helpful — but ONLY if you’re married to a sane, reasonable person. They are NO BENEFIT if you’re married to a disordered narcissist.
I still have some of those books and they have made my second marriage even better than I ever dreamed — because this man is kind, tenderhearted, empathetic, and he makes an effort (which we can all agree with CL is sexy as hell!). He’s actually eager to read them with me and then he puts the knowledge into practice. <3
“Amiisfree, the sad thing is that some of those Marriage Improvement books really ARE good and helpful — but ONLY if you’re married to a sane, reasonable person. They are NO BENEFIT if you’re married to a disordered narcissist.”
So true.
OhHellNo,
Love to read about your happy second marriage. Sometimes the future seems like an unwelcoming thing to me – I’m working on having a little faith in myself and my decisions, a little more faith in the world, and being more optimistic. I find the happy chump stories really inspiring. Thanks for posting!
I agree, good tools are good in the right context for sure. And congrats! I just mean that using a band aid on a paper cut on my left hand while ignoring the spurting artery on my right arm might help the paper cut, but it isn’t ultimately likely to be a problem solver. 🙂
You: Doctor, I keep hitting myself in the head with this rock and it hurts!
Dr: Well, just keep it up for six months and see how you feel
You: CL, the doctor told me to keep hitting myself in the head with this rock for the next six months
CL: Stop it right now!
You: Wow! My head doesn’t hurt as bad.
CL: It will,feel even better after awhile, and by the way, give me that damn rock.
^^^^THIS^^^^
SO true!
I know right? And the savings on the ibuprofen??? Amazing.
Lol. +100 likes! I’m so much better having stopped. 🙂
You missed the bit about painting that rock grey and see if you can do an impression of it.
Dropping the rock makes you feel a little boulder.
😉
Bwah hah!
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I too got the “waiting” advice and the “boys will be boys” crap. I also got silent looks of pity. Ugh! Thank God for my friend who told me to dump him asap.
NarcissismCured.com
OMG I had never heard of this, QueenMother.
Wow, as if we want to have to *parent* our PARTNER for the rest of our lives, constantly drawing boundaries and doling out consequences for every infraction.
Being the Marriage Police is NO FUN. No thanks!
And by the way, the website doesn’t share the cure. But you can buy the book for just $21.95. I’d rather spend that money on dinner, thanks.
Marriage police. Yep, did that too. Spying, hacking into accounts, checking phone records, reading emails. I even called a PI but didn’t go through with it. Fortunately I had the courage (but with hands shaking) one morning to just open his phone when he was in the shower. Told me all I needed to know.
This is me!
“Don’t dwell on the affair, don’t be ugly, don’t be angry. Make the marriage an attractive place to be.”
Because you fix injuries by pretending they feel good?
As miserable as I was after D-day 1, I’m sure in many ways I found the marriage even less attractive than my cheating wife did. This advice was basically advising me to save my marriage by fighting her dishonesty with dishonesty my own. #sickshit
A high school classmate was chumped by her husband (his now third wife is twenty-five years younger). They divorced and I thought she was doing well,dating a younger man. She blogged about ordering Helen Andelin’s book “Fascinating Womanhood”. Andelin wrote about the subject of female enchantment in response to Friedan’s “Feminine Mystique” . I’m praying that my friend is being ironic-time to send her a copy of Tracy’s book.
“Just a flesh wound!”
Spot on!
Thank God, as a nurse, I have a years worth of bandaids!
Yes!
^THIS!! Always cracks me up 🙂
And keep on fighting til you’re just a torso with a head, screaming “Come Back Here!”
Good one, Pearshaped!!
Hahahaha totally. Stick your head in the sand it’ll get better! Said no one sane, ever.
Right, Rockette! Too funny. But, I did try that shit. No, didn’t work.
Cheater’s sister told me she was going to mail me her favorite book, which would help me understand him better – “The Drama of the Gifted Child.” You see, Cheater was such a special snowflake, his entire life since he was a wittle snowfwake, Mommy’s favorite she said – – that I had failed to properly take care of, thus explaining his cheating. Enabler much? She also told me she’d send me a book that would help me, something about “women and aging.” She, like some switzerland friends, assumed that Cheater had cheated with a younger woman I guess (not so). She never sent me either book, in fact, within days she stopped taking my calls. That was 3.5 years ago and his entire family (including his brother who told me to wait a year before doing anything but was embracing OW two months later as the new me) never spoke to me again after my 16 years with the Cheater, umpteen family get togethers with my kids and theirs, etc., they all embraced OW as the new Savior of their poor wittle neglected “gifted” douchebag.
His family usually drinks the cool-aid that the cheating narcissistic abuser offers them.
Lol. Yeah, it’s clearly because he’s “gifted.”
Speaking as a “gifted” chump who was cheated on by a junior college dropout of fairly average gifts, (and with an OW who can’t even spell “definitely,”) I fail to see the correlation.
I know, right?
Both our kids are highly gifted, for which CheaterEx ALWAYS took sole credit, despite being a community college drop-out working in retail. Me? I’m just an intellectual slouch with a Master’s degree who earns twice as much as him.
I went to school (K-12) with OWife, so I know she’s not very bright. This makes me giggle.
Why is it so pleasing when the OW can’t spell?
I found that a saving grace too.
I guess because my narc, like so many, had a rather high IQ, yet his OW at the time I found out was a 19 year old HS dropout who couldn’t spell nor hold down a job.
It was sort of hilarious looking back now.
My new love drives a forklift for a living. He’s worth 800 of the narc, and would never cheat.
Just saying. My new love is by no means stupid. But the narc was apparently “so intelligent” that it caused him to be a real ass.
Oh, the spelling! One thing that really helped me was noticing MOW’s use of “Z” as a plural: dayzzz, dreamzzz, and adding letters: haaappppyyy birthdaaayyyy, partayyyyy.
Seriously, five minutes of that and I would be out the door.
Dances with Meh – ” and would never cheat.”
I’m very happy for you with your new friend,
However, and not to poke you much, but that’s the exact thing I said about the X for 34 years..
just sayin’
In my case I am the one who can’t spell (although I am constantly improving). I don’t know if Schmoopie can spell or not but evidently she has good grammar. She corrects his grammar and apparently he gets off on that “because I can learn so much from her”.
I am good at math and engineering problem solving but I guess that doesn’t count for much.
That’s why we have spellcheck. I think the point is that when we get chumped, we figure the AP must be special and gorgeous and smart, and then it turns out that they’re…..not.
I know, right?! I speak two languages, am working on a third, have three degrees and a great career. (Making 75-80% of our combined income the last few years.) I owned the house before we were married.
The OW works at a pet store and lives with three roommates. Four now that Shithead moved in. Woo, what a prize.
True; I was buoyed by the fact that my X’s main AP took 4 years more to finish her advanced degree than average, and has much lower scores than me on Rate-my-prof. We take our “ha!” moments where we can.
The whore bought her first smartphone November 2015 (and the Traitor HAD to buy one then too… after years of saying they would give you finger cancer!). She’d had a cell phone for years but claimed she didn’t know how to use it. Anyway, her son told me she was taking classes to learn how to use a smartphone. :-))
Hahaha! I just had my first one last week! My daughter came home and reported that she didn’t like OW’s bolognese sauce. So sad but I smirked inside my head after I heard that one:)
Hell’s Bells!!! My Cheater’s Sister, a grown woman who works in a bank, texted me within seconds of a smack down email I had sent Cheater telling him he was a disordered, lying scum bag.
This is a 50 some year old woman: “If you don’t have anything nice to say to my brother, then please don’t say anything at all.”
Red waves of fury made me almost dizzy. I had been schooled on this site and I zinged back, to her BANK email address… breathing with dragon fire, my hands shaking-
all of the disgusting things her dear baby bird brother, the innocent lamb who: drinks to unconsciousness, refused to work, goes to Swinger’s parties in the back of an adult book store and has just gotten his first felony has done. In nice black and white, memorialized forever on her work servers. I then said:
You are as disordered as he is. NEVER contact me again.
Her words felt as abusive as his actions. And, the poor baby bird, getting his big sister to fight his battles. Cowardly much?
Yep. The same thing happened to me. I was tossed out like stinky trash and treated as if I had leprosy by all his family. After finally realizing that I wasn’t the problem and divorcing his butt, it was so, so hurtful to be shunned and made me doubt myself even more. 2 years later I realize that his whole family is F-d up and they ALL did me a favor to discard me. I finally live in peace!!
As is sensed KK really going off the rails, I proposed the two of us go out one night for a drink. Attempts at talking things out quickly evolved into an argument when she suddenly began a comment with: “Marriage is nothing more than a societal construct….”
I stopped her right there and said, “Don’t give me that. That’s not you talking. What the fuck have you been reading…?”
I never did get her to reveal the source, but I suspect there’s a lot out there along the same line. (I never went so far as to invest any effort on RIC — she gave me all I needed to prove it was a hopeless cause.)
Marriage is a social construct. And in the culture we live in, the default of that construct is monogamy. That’s written into the vows. I’ve never been to a wedding where the vows were, “forsaking all others until you meet someone who offers you ego kibbles or you get bored with reponsibility.”
Actually embracing the idea of “marriage as a social construct” can help chumps because the RIC, various religious groups, and the chump’s social circle encourage saving the marriage at the cost of a chump’s mental, physical, and emotional health (and other important things like self-respect). It’s just when the KK types drag out “marriage is a social construct,” that’s CheaterSpeak for “I’m not going to keep my vows.” Whatever they say, just turn it around because they are quite Orwellian in their use of language.
Well sure, marriage IS a societal construct, but it’s one that the cheater agreed to.
““Marriage is nothing more than a societal construct….””
Like driving on the right side of the road. And taxes. And recommended behavior during fire drills. Wearing clothes. Look what happens when you violate those.
Marriage is a regular occurrence in nature. Termites and squirrels, for example, are both creatures that mate for life. If this is an arrangement that animals and insects can make, then why is it so hard for some humans?
Cheaters use the bonobos as the example of how “unnatural” monogamy is. I say “Then go swing in your jungle/on your jungle gym !”
some humans are lower on the phylogenetic scale than termites, I guess.
Unreal. The AP (who was my friend) told me that she thought “monogamy was unnatural.” at a GNO. And that she wasn’t sleeping with her H, but “waxing hurts like a mutherfucker.”
Clues????
Ugh!
My ex told me after he we got engaged that he was “afraid he couldn’t stay faithful to me.” Why O why didn’t I run away like I was in a Monty Python movie?? Still feel stupid for trying to convince him I was worth it ?
The Love Dare, Power of a Praying Wife, The 5 Languages of Love….
I was a Jesus Chump. The Love Dare and the movie Fireproof make me want to hurl now. Infact the whole church thing does because they crammed it down my throat to “forgive” my cheater. Why? He hadn’t asked to be forgiven….and I’m not God…I don’t just snapped my fingers and vanish it away.
I recently had to sit across a hospital bed from my Ex. Our daughter collapsed while I was moving out of the marital house. Mind you he moved his girlfriend and her kids in 3 years ago…..
The Incredible Mr. LIMP Dick had the gull to say “We serve a loving and forgiving God” I said ” you haven’t asked me to forgive you….and that’s part of package…go to the person you caused hurt” His LIMP reply ” It’s not in your nature to forgive”. I said….go ahead and ask me….you never know!!
He didnt….
Because he isn’t sorry. Not one bit.
I have a whole new view on God, the Church…. and it doesn’t just get wiped away because you say your sorry. If that’s the MO of God…then I ain’t buying. Jesus Cheaters are the worst.
Ah, the Five Languages of Love….Read that one and tried to figure out which one he was as it was roulette wheel. He was like “are you reading that you should be doing this?….for example, being appreciative of “everything”. Then got PISSED when I thanked him for taking out the trash…Then the Five Languages of Apology. Boy, did that one piss him off as well as I was trying to figure out how to apologize for all of the times that I didn’t apologize correctly (so he could hold a grudge, but never mentioned it) until the switch was flipped from how I was the problem and while he loved me he needed some space to come home happy. His idea of that was going from our nice home to a grungy apartment “close to Lover’s (just 5 blocks away)” (aka slutshack) where he proceeded to purchase an 1980’s oak headboard and a used mattress for his hot nights with “Ankles” aka Whack-a-Whore.
Those books went into the trash….What a waste of mental space.
Don’t forget Dr. Laura’s books telling women that they cause all the problems in their lives !
Dr Laura and her fucked up thoughts on adultery.
YOU were the bad wife for not treating your husband like a king when he walked in the door.
Your fault. Your fault. Your fault!
I feel sorry for some of the women that call in and give the marriage another go.
Pathetic advice.
BOOO
I wrote her to tell her that one time. Bitch has no answer.
If you have the time and the inclination, read Raven written by journalist Tim Reiterman. It is about Jim Jone, his life, marriage and what happened at Jonestown.
But what it really is about is sociopaths using God and religion to manipulate victims. This book helped me grasp that there are evil people in the world right now. They are not a fictional construct or dead in the history books. They can make you laugh, and they make give you a great orgasm- they might have charisma and they might know how to make money….but they are sinister and scary. They use God and spiritual blather to hide their wickedness.
Also, if you are in the early stages of No Contact, this book will grab you by the lapels and not let go!
(I saw where yellowsunshine was on Week 6…..this is a great success. You are going to baby step your way right out of hell)
One of the particular cruelties of using religion to justify cruel behaviors and/or a lack of consequences for cruel behavior is that it harms others spiritually. So many people hide behind religious language as a way of making space to continue their dysfunctions. It’s really sick, actually.
I sympathize and send you peaceful juju. I am so sorry they did that to you. It’s the worst.
Jesus cheaters absolutely suck, and suck absolutely. The X is a pastor’s son. He’s the face of wholesome winsomeness. Since the kids and I moved out, X has been going to his parents’ church every Sunday to hear his father preach. Why doesn’t he go to his old church, the one our family used to go to? “Too many questions.” Therapists have been flummoxed by the sheer bloodymindedness of his mindfuckery, the layers upon layers of withholding, deception, manipulation, and abuse. Only my latest therapist knew what to make of him, let alone what to tell me. (She’d be shocked if he isn’t rabidly misogynist.) It makes me feel a bit less stupid to know that his mindfuckery puzzles even trained therapists. Talk about a wolf in sheep’s clothing!
Ah, the Amazon-thumping days. Don’t miss that at all. Being a typical bookworm, I really thought the solutions would be found somewhere in the those pages of hard-earned wisdom …. (facepalm!).
My memory is a bit clouded by all of the extra bullshit asshat dumped on me during those days and after, but I believe I read four or five RIC books. And it was all pointless because, along with his bullshit, was the fact that he refused to pick the books up himself.
I do have a “gem” along the RIC lines, though — from my dad. More than a decade before the full implosion, I was going to divorce asshat for a bunch of reasons, most of them involving his anger issues and infidelity (shocking, right?!). Until … my dad gave me the “you’ll destroy your kids” lecture. The guilt trip worked like a fucking charm. Assholes. All of them.